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BusyAssistant

Kept wanting to run into traffic

Just took a walk and was close to jumping out in front of oncoming trucks. Kept telling myself if I saw a specific company's truck I'd do it (they have large trucks. No 18 wheelers on this road bit some big ones). I never saw that company's truck. I could have done it with some other ones but I chickened out. Then when I turned off the main road and was away from the cars I switched to thinking about shooting myself in the mouth. Today has been really bad. Like constant thoughts all day. Idk what to do.

Posted Apr 2, 2020, 8:09 PM UTC

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vxncxnt64•

Have you tried seeking professional help.

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BusyAssistantOP•

No, I need to. I can't at the moment tho due to transportation complications.

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NeoKusanagi315•

Hello, I've been in reddit a while ago but this may be the first real comment I make.

I already tried to kill myself once jumping into the traffic, I looked several days into it and planned how to make it look an accident and at the last moment I failed because the bus hit the brake at the right time and only got hit in the left arm and leg.

After that I tried to get help and do something about my depression, I know that when you are down it seems that is the only option left but talking to someone about it, it doesn't matter who as long you trust in that person, it really helps.

We know that we can't make you think different but just give it a try.

Sorry bad english, not my native language

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