A heavy topic (pls skip if you don't want to read a heavy topic)

I'm a 20 year old male, I had a somewhat rough upbringing and I deal with depression.

The topic I need to rant about is rape. I have never been raped i want to make that clear So here's the story Its currently 8:18am here and I've been up since 10:30am yesterday pulling an all nighter for my mental health (ik that sounds wrong dont worry) So when I pull all nighters its hard and I need to be entertained or I get tired So I read the korean manwha top down scroll comics (the porn ones) because they always have me addicted to scrolling down to every text blurb So I'm reading this one and I'm liking it mostly but then it decides to have one of the characters be raped I was immediately disturbed but this isn't the first time I've seen a story do this but this one hit me the hardest I couldn't just scroll quickly i had to stop reading I in no way find these scenes erotic they thoroughly disturb me and its probably because I'm tired but I got real emotional and I started crying I'm a man I do not know the struggles of being a women nor have I been sexually assaulted so idk that either But rape to me is pure evil because I know part of it very well... complete powerlessness And when I imagine unwanted sex/violation with that it disgusts me greatly Idk why Im posting this all I know is anyone who would do that isn't human they have no humanity to them whatsoever Idk why people are evil i really can't wrap my head around it but rape is more than evil its more fuxked up than I can find words for I just feel awful now and I just feel so horrible that women deal with this constantly idk how they survive i could not handle it id break mentally idk where I'm going i just feel so fuxking bad now fuxk rapists your not worth being called human beings is all I guess I fr hope noone reads this its a mess I just had to put it somewhere but its not the conversation I'd like to have with a friend or family member