12:31

I’m just a waste of space. I’ve wasted my entire life and every opportunity I’ve been given, all because I wanted to be accepted in a community that refused to. I think it was a mistake for my birth mom to go through with having me and to put me up for adoption after 3 months. I wish she hadn’t had me. I wish I wasn’t adopted last minute by the family that chose me. I wish that I didn’t grow up in the close minded area I grew up in. I hate it here. I hate myself. I hate my choices. I should have done something with my life but now all I can get is a minimum wage job with my useless degree. I’m a failure as an artist, friend, and individual. People online have made it very clear that they don’t like me or my artwork. I just feel like everything I do I get ridiculed and I won’t have the same kind of friendships and relationships I see daily on social media and hear about. The stories I read or movies I watch always make me so envious when it comes to strong friendships or relationships because I don’t have any. I think that most days the world would be better off without me because all I do is make mistakes and everyone talks down to me. I’ve been depressed and felt isolated my entire life. I don’t think these feelings will ever change.