I feel like I have too much going on, but I know I don’t?

Well, no matter what I do, it seems I always fall back into self loathing and depression. I feel like I should get a lot more fulfillment out of life but it’s just impossible. I work all day, then I come home and feel inundated with all the chores I’ve made for myself. I can’t get motivated to tackle my home projects and it’s really putting a massive strain on the relationship with my girlfriend who doesn’t seem to understand. I sometimes start to feel my emotions sink toward the end of my work day knowing it’s time to go home and deal with being confronted about my lack of motivation. I just can’t get off my ass and do something about it. I know what I have to do, I just can’t.