So I've got questions...so what.

Maybe I've yet to accept the disgusting fucked inconvient atrocities of life? Am I lazy or noncompliant for thinking this? Am I stupid for thinking I can change it? Am I stupid for thinking it's possible? Am I overthinking about what you said about people having a purpose in life and changing this fucking opresive system is my purpose? Am I way in over my tiny person brain? If I am, what do these thoughts mean? Either way, why TF am I thinking this? Am I depressed? Am I "enlightened". I keep asking and I get nothing? Wtf? I'm 22 and lost as a fucking 7th wonder. Yeah, I'm high, but I've put these questions off long enough and I don't know the answers. Someone's got to have insight.