Oh the slow shutdown, then I wonder who I was, and who I am

For me this happened because of bullying. Apparently when I was a really little kid I was super chatty and happy and extroverted, and then other kids happened.

All my trauma was front-loaded in childhood, so I have never been super talkative or even in the vicinity of bubbly.

I'm told that I was a bubbly enthusiastic person as a child. Then I went to school, and that stopped being me.

Ouch.