Figure I should tell somebody

It’s been a long time coming. My family and friends have tried to help the best they could, the medical system has tried to help the best it could, but my brain is just unfixable. I’m really scared to die, but I’m more scared to live like this. My partner and I barely even speak anymore, and I love him more than anything. He’s trying so hard, I just don’t have anything so say. My mom basically in hysterics trying to deal with my daily bullshit. I can’t live like this anymore. Goodbye, everybody ❤️