I feel like I'm stuck in a dream
I lost my eldest brother a couple of days ago to suicide. It's so confusing cause I thought of him as the guy who had everything. He was the golden child and honestly my mother's favorite kid. We never knew of any sort of emotions he was feeling, he was a very closed off guy. I struggle with chronic depression and other mental health disorders but even I couldn't understand why exactly he did this. He left with no note, we're still unsure about the motive that led to him doing this too. It's been 4 days already and I can't process that he's actually gone. There's so much I want to say about him but I don't know what to do or how to carry on with it.
Posted Mar 20, 2022, 4:55 PM UTC
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I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. I’ve come to realize that everyone reacts differently to the death of a loved one. lost my older brother this past May and its still so hard to get through the days and accept what happened. There’s some okay days where I feel like I’ll get the past it then I get sucked back to feel as though it’s day 1. Allow yourself to feel the emotions you need to feel. Grieve your brother as there is no right or wrong way. My heart is with you
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