Partner is out of town - really wanted to drink last night

My partner is out of the country for a work trip. They've been gone for a week as of today and will be gone next week. I enjoy my solitude as an introvert and only-child, but I still am finding myself feeling sad and lonely.

Since they've been gone I haven't gone for a run, I haven't walked the dogs (although I do give them attention). I haven't really been working from home while they are gone either, been making the commute 1.5 hours into the office - I enjoy the energy there, and the motorcycle ride, plus there is a ferry involved and it's very peaceful and pretty 20 minute transfer.

I noticed on the ferry ride I've been checking my phone more than appreciating the view and experience, which then makes me feel kinda triggered thanks to the doom-scrolling, making me feel like I gotta "move move move" and "do something about issue x, y, and z". Which then ends up making me stressed, which then makes me crave the affects of alcohol, that "aaah" feeling when the first few sips start to metabolize in your stomach and you stop giving a shit.

Yesterday on the way home, boy it sounded nice to stop at the bar and have a cocktail or two. Nobody would know, except me. I ended up hopping in the car when I got home and grabbing groceries and picked up a couple of treats instead (non-alcoholic) along with a few things that are actually healthy for me, just so they're around I'm more likely to eat em (fruit, nuts, etc).

I hope you are able to check in with yourselves when you notice you're craving and getting wrapped up in the veil of our oh-so-precious ego trying to call the shots "hey, we're special and we're feeling uncomfortable feelings, lets go get a drink and stuff that shit down!"