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AnnaFreud

I can’t tell if I’m having an extremely emotionally turbulent ovulation or it’s a natural reaction to my life

According to my tracker app I ovulated yesterday, but my sex drive is low. I feel so sad and anxious and this overwhelming feeling of dread and paranoia that usually only comes during luteal.

I’m so sad about my relationship and have this deep gut feeling that I need to leave, but I oscillate between anxious/avoidant attachment and often don’t listen to my gut because my gut is always telling me to run or freeze. I had an abortion last summer after conceiving during a rape and the constant discourse that uses my experience as a hypothetical scenario hurts so badly. The world has become an echo chamber of my most self hating feelings and as much as i tune out social media, it leaks in through friends and family. I feel so alone tonight.

Posted Jun 26, 2022, 2:50 AM UTC

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unfunnyfridays•

It sounds like you have been through a lot. I can imagine processing it all, right this moment is intense, understandably so. I also feel weird during ovulation and find mint tea to take the edge off a little from the hormonal shifting of this part of my cycle. Sending you lotsa caring energy. Be kind to yourself as you work through it. 💟

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MctheMick12•

Samesies. Today was ovulation and I felt nearly euphoric. I am grateful for that tho bc I have not had any good days in a long while.

Tomorrow I will totally CRASH into even more physical symptoms, elevated neurological symptoms and probably despair/despondency to top it all off. Yayyy for us, I know

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Sending (((BigHugs)))

Love, Light, Strength and Support 🧡😊💚🌻💛💪💙

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savetheamur15•

I’m so sorry that you have been through so much. I don’t always experience the high with ovulation. This cycle my husband and I are moving and we have both been sick but are feeling better. My sex drive is low which is strange for me with ovulation, and I have been feeling anxious. Stress definitely affects our cycles

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Princess-Xenomorph•

Yeah, I’m having hard times too now and idk if I’m down because times are hard or because of ovulation.

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JoyKathleeen•

How is your relationship normally? When you're not super emotionally messed up. What does your gut tell you then? That's what you need to go off of. I can really only give you advice on the relationship aspect of your post because that's what I have experience with. My only other tip is that when I feel like you do I avoid real life as much as I can with TV shows and sleeeeeep

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redditshy•

(((((HUGS)))) I never even thought about the triggering nature of this nonstop conversation for so many people. Ugh. I am here, I hear you, and you are not alone.

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