AnnaFreud

According to my tracker app I ovulated yesterday, but my sex drive is low. I feel so sad and anxious and this overwhelming feeling of dread and paranoia that usually only comes during luteal.

I’m so sad about my relationship and have this deep gut feeling that I need to leave, but I oscillate between anxious/avoidant attachment and often don’t listen to my gut because my gut is always telling me to run or freeze. I had an abortion last summer after conceiving during a rape and the constant discourse that uses my experience as a hypothetical scenario hurts so badly. The world has become an echo chamber of my most self hating feelings and as much as i tune out social media, it leaks in throu

I know that there have been many instances of Russian/Eastern European children being adopted and then sent to TTI, like the Montana Ranch. Before the adoption ban, there were cases in the news about families unofficially transferring custody of Russian kids they adopted to other families they met on internet forums or carting them off to camps. Do any of you fall into this category?

Learn from my mistakes. Didn’t do any lasting damage but damn am I testing the people who love me.

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