I want to be murdered on film
I wanna be murdered on film
So don't be afraid to tug me by my hair, get that glamour shot
Slit my throat from ear to ear
It'll be nice, to finally have a way to breathe
Reach into me
And eat my heart out
Catch the light in that specific, special type of way
Make it seem a memory
Every good director has their thing, right?
So make it something nostalgic, to cling to
Like
Like I'm a child playing in paint right?
Getting red hand prints everywhere
And for the first time wondering what its like,
What it's like to be forgiven
Or maybe something from not so far back
Like I'm a middle schooler dying on stage, peaking my dead eyes out at the crowd
And all I can think about on the ride home
Is that no one can ever give me the reaction I’ll want
Shut up
Shut the fuck up
Oooooor
or or or
Or maybe it should be more recent
Like the night before graduation
Where I stood in front of the mirror
And traced a line of red around my throat
Just to get a taste
Thinking, “Isnt this nice, isn't this nice, isn't this nice”
But It's ok, whatever you pick
I’ll like whatever it is you do
It'll be edgy, it'll be cool
It'll be the next big thing
I'll be a star
Just make sure to shoot from high above, and get all my good angles
It’d be just the worst if my bad side was caught
It'd be so annoying if my overbite stuck out
It'd be hell if I wasn't made a lie
You can edit my tears later, if you want
Just make sure my face is something to be pitied
Thats the whole point of this after all
to be pitied
Write my father's name on the blade
Trace my mothers
.
no
No
No!
No! No! No!
Write mine!
Write mine a thousand times over.
Cause it's me, baby! Cause it's been me!
So make me pretty! Doll me up!
What goes with red again?
Bury me silently! Or don't bury me at all! My name is nothing and so is the earth it’ll consume!
Make sure to press record!! Make sure to hold my hand! It's ok! I promise you that it's ok!!
Murder me violently!! Murder me lovingly! Murder me in all the ways that I deserve! I love you! I love you! I love you!
.
And
And when its over, please don't forget to wash your hands
And please know that you are forgiven
And know that I'm not wondering anymore
And that is the only thing I have truly ever wanted
Forgiveness is hell
Forgiveness is heaven
I hope I get sent to neither
Note: This is just a really really rough vent piece lol
https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/x1sxci/what_you_dont_know_will_kill_you/
Posted Aug 30, 2022, 11:22 PM UTC