I just woke up in bed and this is what my mind says, and so I just wrote it hastily.

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Fell from the Bottom

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I'm dreaming, a serene rem sleep

Such creativity, unconsciously generating as I fell deep

From one place to another, I am levitating

The feeling that my body is light as air, like my inside there's nothing

Such a break,

such a rest from a day

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It's everytime, as I lie in bed,

waiting for the time I'm temporarily dead

Under the blanket, the growing pressure, fears, and anxiety that I accumulated

Is what I had to sleep with, to dissolve momentarily

My brain had finally rested, sobriety from that stresses

The silence is what I waited as the day progresses, yet I unknowingly tasted

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As I levitate, a heavenly unconscious state

Each time I wake is what I very hate

I feel like I fell,

Each time the bell yells it quells my dreams a hard farewell

From the skies my mind kept me afloat momentarily

In meteoric speed I fell down,

Awaken in reality, I have felt the bottom of my wooden bed just as I land in the ground

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However, what made me really fell to the rock bottom

Was everytime my eyes opened in the morning

My feelings are so draining, well it drained, it's a drought

My guts are as dry as the soil that cracked

The lakes of energy, motivation and bravery, and optimism

Which I fought to conserve to live yesterday to make me feel and live better

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All was gone, back to square one

Each time the sun rises, I rise from my lying

Rebuilding and storing, then to be drained and to start again

It's tiring, this has been repeating for long this way

Next time I just want to resume sleeping

when my eyes meets reality in the beginning of the day

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