Lonely Nights on the bathroom floor

There are so many lonely nights without you

Even though youre right in the next room.

Fighting with my brain be cause of us, because of me.

Whats right? Whats not?

Why cant i see?

Suffering all alone

Drowning in a nightmare of turmoil and pain

Terrified to wake you up due to the shame....

"Its everyday now Its that time of year"

Why, if you love me so much do you still let me suffer here?

I dont expect answers

I dont expect advice

All i want is for you to be there

and tell me "its going to be alright"

I dont expect you to fix me

I dont expect you to understand

I just want your arms around me

Please, just take my hand.

Hold it through the darkness,

hold it through the despair,

I know it's exhausting but I'm so afraid without you there.

Death is in the corner

wispers of self destruction

and longing are in my mind

Telling me wrong is right

Without the one that i love most

Those wispers are so much harder to fight.

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