Sewing The World's Heart

I can’t explain it,

Was I deprived of sunlight?

Or did I finally return to a state of contentment,

Devoid of hopelessness and over analytics.

I don’t know,

But I figured myself out this morning.

I solved a problem that plagued me last month.

Why I constantly felt the need to want to be loved,

It was a drive before,

Naturally.

But I refine the idea, and I understand now,

I don’t have to be loved because I have friends and family who love me.

I love me.

But like the human that I am,

I’m always looking for something new to experience.

I’ve admitted to myself several times,

I have trouble differentiating kindness and love,

I have a hard time reading if someone is interested or not,

I rush into things cause of the idea and potential of the person.

I know I am flawed,

And so is my warped perception of love and relationships,

But it’s okay.

I understand now,

I’ll focus on myself and make friends.

I’ll put in as much time and patience as I do with everything else.

I’ll take it slow when getting to know someone and be upfront,

Then I’ll eventually experience what love is

Not platonic,

Not Parental,

But the love and appreciation that I desire.

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