To save myself, I let you destroy me.

Douse: Verb To pour a liquid over; Drench

The last night I saw you You doused me in Gasoline. Completely, convinced that neither of us would burn. Holding a flame inches away From the havoc, you created.

Kissing my forehead, You promised me that everything would work out, Dropping the match. Stepping away. I watched as the flame consumed me

Too late to scream, much too late to beg for help. You lit me on fire, despite my best efforts. To contain the danger, To protect you. Falling backwards, my body drenched; Within the chaos.

Douse: Verb To extinguish; a fire, or light

This last year, I doused myself in water. Completely, removing what you had done. Remaining under the stream, In the peace, I created

Holding myself I promised, nothing will ever be the same Standing up. Stepping away. I dried off the water that covered me.

Enough time to think, Plenty of time to reconcile I saved myself, despite what I wanted. To preserve what was left, To protect myself. Falling back into myself, my body relaxed Within the tranquility.

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