Please help me make this better I love and hate it: quiet desperation

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Hi there! We all have those poems we love and hate, usually we can't get our ideas to mesh properly and look like a fully formed poem and I know how frustrating it can be. Certain parts here read like a rap, but then in other parts the flow and tone is quite different and it doesn't read very smoothly.

I don't think everything needs to stick to a set rhyming scheme but I think following some kind of pattern or structure would greatly improve it. The first four lines are sharp and rhyming, the next two lines kind of seem to be hanging there between the first and the third stanza and later on when you go back to quiet desperation verses they seem to be in sets of four and don't have the two lines after.

The the next four lines (from hamster to torture) don't mesh with the others and feel a bit underwhelming because of the structure/rhyme. The half rhymes aren't so clear and I think AABB would clash less, here's an example of how I think it might flow better: They call it anxiety / This hamster wheel inside of me / It keeps pushing me forward / But I would call it torture. (I removed the word tummy because it stuck out to me as quite young for theme of the poem).

I was confused by "We got shitty covered" and questioned if it was a typo for "we got shit covered" or whether it's a reference to something I don't know of. Changing "my lover" to "a lover" would make more sense too since it's an undiscovered place. Also three of the four lines there end on covered and I think changing up the last line will make it less repetitive.

This comment is already pretty long so I will leave it there but I hope you found the feedback useful, keep at it! :)

This was so beautifully written like a spoken word and a poem merged in one. This sub sleeps on good art man. The metaphors take you on a whirlwind as you’re reading. I’ve never felt so connected to a piece on this sub as I do this one. I love this.

I want to dissect this poem to every detail so bad but I’ll be typing for days. Amazing work OP