I knew what I was getting into, I just didn't know that I'd hurt this much

I knew that you were trouble, the minute you walked in. Maybe the inner 8 year old me wanted to fix you like I couldn't with my mother's struggle, But that's not on you, that's on me. Though it still doesn't justify you treating me so shitty. Have me nurse you back to health and then stomp on my broken past, How am I the one to pay for this at last?

I knew you were trouble, the minute you walked in, I wanted to be there for a woman, unlike my father was for my mother. I knew what I was getting into, my mind was no fool, But my heart said fuck it, being loved half heartedly at age 17 just felt so cool. I knew what I was getting into, I just didn't know it'd hurt this much, Rose petals on your lips, cold fingers of my mother on my eyelids they touch.

I knew you were trouble, and I almost instantly gave you my heart, I wonder if I am to be blamed, because there were signs, though subtle. Your skin felt like falling into a thousand cushions. But could I own your gaze and attention? I couldn't. Not even momentarily, I love how we said fuck you to each other so sincerely, It was almost poetic.

I was watching random videos one day, Saw this man say that after he left the girl who cheated on him, he didn't feel alive I cursed the show, but I knew I felt the same inside. I knew you were trouble, I knew you'd break my heart, I knew you'd fuck me up, I knew you'd tear me apart, I knew you were trouble. Well that man went back to his ex, Who apparently came running back to him, He didn't even have to text. Maybe that's my mistake, maybe that's my fault, I left you texted after years, And you changed you number so I couldn't call, Or maybe you blocked. Who knows? His love came back, I know you never will, So while you fuck your new boyfriend, I'm leaving you this goodbye in my will.

• Yash

I know it's not the most healthy way of channeling your emotions, and that's not my attempt either, I just wanted to write what felt real in a moment and exaggerate it a bit. Pure fiction.

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