Lifeless and desolate
I don’t wanna eat.
I don’t wanna sleep.
Don’t wanna tie my laces,
or keep greeting those faces
I don’t wanna leave :
There’s no time to grieve.
My stomach is empty,
still sick as if it’s had plenty.
The feeling’s wrong,
and I’m not that strong...
I don’t wanna see,
I don’t wanna be,
Why does it keep repeating? -
Like whenever we’re parting
I can’t find any distraction,
To save me from this delusion.
No strength, no will,
We both know the drill
Yet somehow it takes days
For me to clear out the haze.
The sheets are stained
And the limbs are strained,
In this lonesome gloomy room
Without your laugh and perfume,
I’m spinning here purposeless
Where you left me in distress.
I don’t wanna have to share
I don’t know that I can show I care.
Now my skin is bruised,
And I’m still confused.
(30.11.22 - 22:21 - following your departure)G.H
(edit: added rhythm when read out loud - thanks for the comment, great idea !)
- To read out loud :
BOLD : emphasis
ITALICS : slowing down
[__] : soft and weak
(__) : loud
§__§ : faster and altogether
- (middle score??) : slight pause
I don’t wanna eat.
I don’t wanna sleep.
Don’t wanna - tie my laces,
or keep - greeting those faces.
--
( I don’t wanna leave! )
-- breath
[ There’s no time to grieve... ]
My stomach is empty,
still sick as if it’s had plenty.
The feeling’s wrong,
[ and I’m not that strong... ]
-- breath
I don’t wanna see,
I don’t wanna ( be ),
Why does it keep - repeating? -
Like whenever we’re parting...
I can’t find any distraction,
To save ( me ) - from this delusion.
No strength, no will,
We both know the drill
Yet somehow it takes days
For me to - clear out the haze*.*
--
The sheets are - stained
And the limbs are - strained,
§ In this lonesome gloomy room
Without your laugh and perfume, §
-- I’m spinning here purposeless
Where ( you ) left me in distress.
I don’t wanna have to share
[ I don’t know that I can show I care... ]
--
Now - my skin is bruised,
And I’m still confused.
Posted Dec 2, 2022, 12:47 PM UTC · edited