Numb

For a while now I’ve been feeling numb.
It’s like I want to cry but the tears won’t come,
It’s like I want to laugh but the joy’s not there,
It’s like I want to yell but I just don’t care.

I haven’t been eating ‘cause I don’t want food,
I’ve stopped getting up because I’m not in the mood,
I’m floating through life but not trying to swim,
And sometimes I just want to sink and give in.

For a while now I’ve been feeling down,
Like I don’t wanna die, but I might just drown,
Like I’m not myself, but a role I made
Just to hide behind because I’m afraid.

I haven’t been dreaming, don’t care about life.
I don’t want a future, but my blood on a knife.
But I can’t leave, that’s not fair to my friends.
So I’ll just keep counting the days ‘til my end.

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