emotional a hole here (this is a rant)

my parents are divorced and I go to my grandmas house witch is SIX FUXKING HOURS AWAY which means I have to leave my mom and I hate that but I also love seeing my dad and step mom. I’m currently crying because I love them so much but they each live so far away from each other. IM JUST SAD OK? I NEED THEM BOTH I NEED THEM ALL IF I THINK ABOYT THE HAPPY TIMES I CRY MORE, OK? 😭😭