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Am I going to have to keep going like this forever… just reinfected after some years? 2 week awful course of antibiotics for 2 weeks every 2-3 years?? I don’t see how I won’t get reinfected if over half the world has it.

How am I supposed to date new people and kiss them? I can’t make every new date get an h pylori test lol. And seems there’s no way to tell about food contamination unless you cook all your own food.

My paranoia is a bit heightened because I live in SEA where it seems chances of reinfection are higher than in first world countries. I just don’t get why there isn’t more done to eradicate this in everyone so that people don’t keep passing it onto eachother. And if so many pe

But others can. Is it brain differences? I can’t really do moderation with anything I truly like, I always go all out obsessive or nothing. But with weed it’s on another level. Just one hit will cause me to go back into addicted obsessed weed-brain. However if I get past the first few days of sobriety, it’s like I get addicted to being sober. It’s always an extreme with me and I want to understand why.

During times im off the wagon I would feel the need to smoke as much as possible. Like bong hit after bong hit all day and as late at night as possible. I’d even sacrifice sleep for a whole night some nights because I didn’t want to stop smoking. It wouldn’t even get me any more high at that

I relapsed BAD for the last 2.5 months despite having a good number of months sober under my belt before this.

The reason being my parents are visiting in my city for months for the first time in years. They are not good for me and by body rejects them in an extreme way with autoimmune flare ups (literally just lost all my hair on my whole body while they’re here from having full amount of hair - my head is now 85 percent bald and I had to shave my head and I don’t have lashes and eyebrows). My health has also deteriorated to where im semi bed bound and malnourished.

There is one more month they are here and im not sure I can physically handle it without being hospitalized. Since they ha

The only time I feel amazing and full of life energy and happiness is the week around ovulation. Why isn’t there a pill women can take that keeps us ovulating all month instead of the typical birth control pills.

Obviously this pill wouldn’t be a contraceptive but more as a treatment for PMDD or for women trying to to conceive or something. I assume it would take the form of a higher ratio of estrogen to progesterone than anything birth control would be, or maybe a dose of estrogen only (not sure the exact hormone profile of ovulating women).

I assume this doesn’t exist because it wouldn’t work or would be harmful in some way? I just don’t see why it wouldn’t be available otherwise when m

I have autoimmune diseases and the only way I can keep flares away is with my diet. I eat a strict autoimmune friendly diet and employ fasting as well to control inflammation. On top of that I have PCOS and reactive hypoglycemia which I need to limit my sugar and carb intake and focus on protein and fat content to manage. I’ve explained to my parents over and over before over the years. I feel amazing and almost completely healthy and normal when I eat this way.

Yet every single time my N mother is around me she pushes food so hard. Pushing me and guilting me into eating things I can’t eat that will cause me to flare up. They stayed over at my house for like a week and every single morning

I am a very feminine person, love fashion and makeup and hair and I generally put a decent amount of effort into my appearance each day. It makes me happy and i feel much more myself when I do it.

However when I am visiting my parents (n mom, unsure if n or e dad) or parents are visiting me I am the total opposite. I wear the baggiest most masculine clothes I can find, all black, don’t do my hair or makeup or even my skincare. I have no idea why. It’s like I purposefully want to look as unattractive as possible around them. I never feel confident presenting this way, and I don’t feel like myself at all, but I know it’s only temporary until I can get away again.

It’s like I’m trying to

My parents are staying over at my house for a few nights. There is a spare bedroom which I assumed they would sleep in together. However when i asked about whether or not they would like one blanket to share or two separate ones, my mother told me she was going to be sleeping in my bed with me.

My parents and I have a bad relationship but through therapy I have chosen to make peace with who they are and to “forget” the past in order to have a shallow relationship with them now. However every time I am with them I get intense negative emotions and it’s difficult to be around them. Having them stay over with me is affecting me negatively already even though they aren’t even here until tomorr

I can’t go no contact because my parents help me with my medication payment and medical bills. I also feel like I need to be very nice to them and like I can’t say no because I feel guilty about the financial support they’ve always given me and I also would be screwed if they stopped giving it to me so being nice is part of my survival at this point.

But I also feel angry because I don’t think I would have so many chronic stress induced illnesses if it weren’t for them. I feel like they set me up for failure and now I am tied to them because of it, leading to infinite guilt on my end but also anger because if they actually did anything right when raising me I could be self sufficient and f

Haven’t seen my parents in several years and been content but my parents are visiting family + me and are staying in my city an hour away from me for 3 months. Ever since they landed I have felt strong ick feelings. I had that feeling almost constantly when growing up but it went away once I moved out. I haven’t even seen them yet since they got here but the feelings are strong. I feel nauseous and the ick with them in the city and every time I imagine me with them it gets worse and I want to throw up. I feel guilty about it but also annoyed. I don’t like them being near me. I get disgusted that they are related to me and that we share dna. I feel embarrassed for some reason.

Whats up wit

I have a haircut appointment today so I was browsing on google images for pictures to show my hairstylist. MY GOD how are 90% of the images ai!? How do I find pictures of real people with real hair? It keeps showing me the same ~100 photos too, most of which are ai.

I saved the few real images I could find and then I looked at the photos I had saved from my haircut last year and they are literally all the same photos. I actually wanted a slightly different cut this year but the only photos I can find of what I want are ai. And it seems I’m getting the same very few pictures of real people recycled to me over and over, since last year no matter what I search.

What is going on? Surely ther