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Just back at lifting after 2 weeks off due to illness. After 2 weeks of lying in bed, every muscle I move during a workout would set sore like hell, the mind-muscle connection is really there and the pump feel is like really good.

The problem is when I did Lateral Raises yesterday, I did it with the form I usually do all the time, but this time my upper traps also got sore really bad, also with my side delts. They both got sore equally. Normally when I perform Lateral Raises, upper traps nevers got that sore before. My side delts did also got great soreness, which makes me wonder would Lateral Raises also recruit some upper traps no matter how strict the form?

I was just so bored, I watched some speed dating show for straight people. And I was amazed at the audacity of some women. Basically the show is like each new men would take turn showing up and introducing themselves, if during the introduction you don't like something you pop a ballon you were given and hold at the start.

I watched a lot of episodes, and saw a lot of hot, young, fit and handsome attractive men got rejected, popped the ballon right at the moment he showed up. I couldn't understand why since he looked so good, the only answer was height. Some women don't even try to make it polite, like, "Sorry, height, that's all"

When it's the guys turn, there's also this women who's so u

I hate myself for everytime I craved and relapsed, I would only remember the good part, the high maybe 1 hour after use, but never how terrible I look and my health is after every binge and relapsed, never remember how disappointed everyone and especially I know feel about myself, never remember how harder to stand up and walk back again since I would throw aways jobs and everything for a binge. Never rememeber how much harder to stand up again, after each relapsed.

The last relapsed, I had already deleted all contacts, all dealers, but somehow on that day I craved I vaguely remembered I took a screenshot of the number but not sure, I scrolled randomly through 3000 pics and somehow unluckil

You know, when I was younger I was very rebellious. I realized I'm gay, that I'm different. I was obsessed with idea of having and wanting to be with "my people", with people like me.

I cam out to everyone, which is a social death sentence, since I'm living in a conservative third world country and it was more than 10 years ago too. I lost all my guys friends, childhood friends, but I would joint all the clubs, the events, the bars, trying to look and be with "my people."

The sadly turned out that I kind regretted my decision quite a bit. Experience taught me that sometimes the only common ground I have with another gay guy is that we both like men, and nothing else.

Some of the meanest,

I didn't know what Amphetamine/Adderall was. I got introduced and got addicted to Meth as my first drug of choice. I came across and only knew what Amphetamine is during the time I searched for more information about fighting Meth addiction, and it seems like they have the same symptoms as I have during withdrawal/when stop using the drugs.

I'm under the impression that Meth is much much worse than Adderall, because the dose I and most people use is much much 10, 20x than normal, I think, at least for me, I binged hard for days. But somehow I feel like the way people on Adderall describe their feelings off meds, it sounds much much worse than me with meth. Still the same things, but the int

I find it amazing to see how beauty standards differ from each culture to culture. I'm asian, living in an south-east country. Most if not all of the guys here don't grow a beard, clean-shaven and most don't keep body hair.

This is to each person's taste, but personally I find faces and bodies much much attractive without hair and beard on, especially on us asian guys here. I barely, rarely any asian guys who could pull of beards, most guys who look good in beard I find much attractive without them. I think that us east, south-east asian culture tends to look down on beard and body hairs too.

Do you or do you not like beards and body hairs on a guy?

It's getting very hot here where I live, I live in the tropics, and we have guys wearing short shorts, tank tops, cut off sleeves, stringer here everywhere I go.

Like I couldn't even go out and get a coffee without checking out some hot candies with by best efforts not to check guys out. It just bams right into my eyes, straght dudes don't know how revealing things they wear are to us gay guy's eyes: ((

I'm only 25, but the older I am, the less interested in dating and hooking-up I seem to become. I remembered once when I was younger, I seemed to be so scare of being alone, I was so clingy to all my relationships just out of fear of being alone, hooking-ups guys after guys but feeling even lonelier each time, looking to fill the empty holes in my heart.

But I attributed it to a lack and undeveloped sense of self-identity. I didn't know who I am, what I want to do with my life for my own back then. The older I am, the stronger and clearer that sense has become. The less time I want to spend for anything else except for myself and my own journey in my own life. There's so much things and pla

Currently only 10 days clean off meth, feeling almost back to normal, but just lacking some mood and energy here and there. But when I use energy drinks, the caffeine and sugar in there made me feel like I have energy and happy, positive again

Should I rely on them to make it through the early days of withdrawal? Or am I just gonna substitute one addiction for another addiction?