CarWilde

this isn’t a suicide post, i probably still have like a year or so left in me. by ”all this” i mean trannying out. i’ll quite simply never pass and i’d rather live as an attractive man than a weird freak twinkhon oppressed by society, which is really the best i could hope for when it comes to transitioning. i’m not going to be happy either way, but i will likely be able to find brief respites of solace while repping, with no hrt-induced gynecomastia to constantly remind me of the fact i’m a tranny.

i really hope there’s a better world for me in the next life, and a better future for all of us in this one

i can’t enjoy food anymore, i can barely exercise and my man bones jut out from my face like cliffs because there’s no fat to hide them. every single time i stand up i literally feel like i’m going to have a heart attack and faint and die🙃 when i was at my worst point my hair was literally falling down in disgusting clumps into the shower drain and i have scars and discoloration all over my body from how dry and sore-filled my skin got at one point.

ik most of you are probably joking when talking about anamaxxing or just mean losing weight by it but i still hate seeing it talked about as such a positive thing sometimes tbhon