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1988 scenario / alternate history / pat robertson

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often in the night, i cant help but think of my life and what got me here. in those moments, it makes me sad to think of my life. or rather, the potential it couldve had had my family truly cared to nurture me instead of deal me with neglect

for starters, i never got to know my biological parents. so growing up it never was with my parents but by one side of people that took it to their role of raising me and my two siblings after the fact. despite that, it felt as if they never really truly cared for me. i have autism, and it felt as if they would see this as making me mentally impaired, to the point of "babying" me and treating me like a toddler. well when i was in high school. this would

haii, this is the user formerly known as catboxxd. you probably already know by now, but ive worked on a couple of mods. some were good, some were bad. some were praised, and some were mocked. its all subjective at the end of the day right? some people have different tastes, and thats fine. i was in this community for… 3 years now. it all feels like a flash, but everything goes on till it all ends in darkness

when i first started modding, it gave me something to do with my life. as cringe as it is to say, it gave me a purpose. i never got a normal childhood, and the internet in a way has been my only place i ever felt comfortable in. this is all good, until it isnt. deeper feelings, sometim

is there a reason i am on earth? that, for whatever reason, i have come onto this earth to be here? like, just existing, with no other aims or goals other than to just, exist? that i have been born onto this world, for no other reason other than to simply exist and that is all? or, just here by mistake? through one lazy dad and mom that decided to have unprotected sex and suddenly birth me? yet, deciding to not care for kids and instead throw them early into their development to their family for them to raise? is this an even bigger indicator as to how worthless i am to people? that, even as as toddler, i was not seen as good enough for even my biological parents that have decided to run awa

i dont know what happiness is? or at the very least, my interpretation of it differs due to my own circumstances? like, having nothing happening and just being dull and nothing of note is better than thinking about harming myself? was my childhood as good as i think about it? or just glasses onto abuse to think of better times with things i enjoyed, yet cannot find anything enjoyable about them now? is the result of the person i am today because of that? because of what others have done to me, that i am now as broken as i am now? believing the little good moments such as playing nintendo the only thing i can think of? is this all i have to myself? that i am only happy when i was a kid? was i

do i really matter? to others? like, if i killed myself or disappeared for months, people would actually care? to be more specific, friends and family would care? as in, those people that i have met in my life and gotten to know, but for one reason or another, they have decided to cut me off? is there a reason theyve decided to do that? because of vague ideas within themselves that hold me to an impossible standard? that i am just a mistake? that i am worthless? would they even care? how long have they thought without me? when i am weeks and weeks into thinking of my existence and my little worth, have they even pondered about me despite me thinking about them? is this all i will be for the

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