"There is all kinds of help!"
Yeah, if you volunteered and signed up for the military/police/fire/first responders. Countless programs and avenues for help. I don't even know any who got out of the service and didn't get a stipend for whatever level of "disability" they earned. Yeah I sound upset and jealous because I didn't sign up for my trauma, no one cares and I am supposed to take my struggles and just fuck off.
But night terrors reliving horrific, violent abuse that was the entire story of your first 15 years of your life that has horrifically altered your perceptions, ability to trust, love or be loved = invisible.
That is 52 year old me. A year and a half ago I wasn't feeling good




