FlatwormStill

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I'm a 34-year-old single mom of two boys (5 and 8), co-parenting 50/50 with their dad without court arrangements. While he has mental health issues, I don’t feel my kids are unsafe with him. However, he has always been rude and degrading toward me. I tolerated it for years, but now I’ve had enough of his mood swings, negativity, and lack of gratitude.

I work hard to provide my boys with stability, education, and strong values like kindness and appreciation. I set aside personal feelings for the sake of good communication, but their dad refuses to show me even basic respect. He’s never acknowledged that I’m a good mom, and we all

I am a hyper happy fun life-loving 34 year old. I have so many stories to tell pointless or not they all seem excitable to me but it seems that I've been told a lot lately that my stories are just so long I never get to the point I bounce around too much and people stop listening.
In my world I love when things connect with another thing or there's Universe coincidences so I might start a story but tell like three mini stories in the middle of it just to circle back around to my original story and connect all of them and I lose my audience big time. I also feel like I annoy my boyfriend with this, do you guys ever feel this way?

My body is shutting down, my mouth clenched eyes dried open teeth in pain. My sinus cavities dried and itchy with blood. Back aches and my head full of pressure. I'm on a binge, day 4 now 5. I feel so disassociated and emotionally dry. I'm so dun with this. Peace is when I'm weird ol me and I can rest and be present for my boys. I love them so much. I'm so angry at myself

Great support