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through all the years the one thing you could never do was be truly honest with me… and i mean TRULY honest. the lease you could do is do it now. the one thing i could never do was give you what you wanted. if that’s what you want it’s what i’ll do too.

then be honest with me and say what you want to say, then i’ll leave you alone.

If I wasn’t all bad then why is that ALL you try to portray to LITERALLY everyone? The paperwork saying i’m such a terrible man, and i’m dangerous and violent. that you “never want to see or speak to me again”. the tiktok posts of me trying to reach out and making fun of me for it and have your friends try to intimidate me, or the “if you ever see me in a happy relationship” i have screenshots and pictures too but i wouldn’t NEVER throw your dirty laundry out there like that because it’s not right and it’s not right that you’re doing it either. i get it you’re mad, upset, resentful or whatever else but what is that going to help at ALL? how was i the one holding us back from being better? y

i’m tired of you pretending you’re innocent in terms of how you treated me to be honest, you’ve slapped me in the face while you were drunk, swung at me and thrown shit at me, yelled at me while she was around too. but i don’t throw that in your face because i know my actions played a role in you wanting to do that and maybe i deserved it? when you were there before she was born we talked about this… WE WERE NOT READY to have her, and i have the screenshots from the text thread of me saying that to you and you saying we could make it work. and now that’s all getting thrown in my face too, which is another thing you said you wouldn’t do. you changed me too man, i don’t love the same way, i do

i feel stupid trying to decipher every one of these hoping they’re from you, wasting every extra minute looking for something… looking like an idiot viewing your shit in the first 10 seconds and trying to help you even when i shouldn’t be. it’s hurts more than the silence did, and you’re very obviously still feeling the same way you have been. i’m obviously weak for you still and i don’t like that after everything and how long it’s been. i obviously can’t text, but i also don’t want to keep wasting my own time and getting my hopes up when nothings changed.

im not sure why but i’m thinking of you so much today. i’m not sure why we keep doing this to eachother, i wish we could just coexist. i hope your day goes well.

i get why you’re mad at me about the reposts but i’m allowed to be mad too, you took her from me and you’re saying these terrible things and you left me in the dark with all of your stuff to take care of. i was sad and broken too. i wanted it to be this with you. this was what we wanted… not necessarily here but we wanted jt. i felt like shit for a few months about it because it was supposed to be you guys. after everything you were doing i just accepted i couldn’t have that anymore. i have a notebook, i write to her every day and i have a savings jar for her for when she’s older. i got her christmas presents and birthday presents, some of them i got very very sad at and im very sad writing

i also hate what you did to me, i hate how you treated me too. i wish we both could’ve been better when we knew it was our last chance. the 3 years with you had been a whirlwind, you know everything that happened with me in that time period and how we were on a daily basis… after you left i had nothing because you took her. i should have fought more for her but you were calling the police on me and submitting letters to the judge even when i was just dropping your stuff off or trying to send you money so i was scared to fight more for her and im scared to even be doing this right now because you’re so fucking unpredictable man it’s scary fr. you took her and i wanted that love back… they nee

you’ve said multiple times you hate me. you feel nothing for me obviously.

i can’t come back but i’ll leave you alone.