Knownyesmaybe3

im 17 rn n all my life ive been wanting things to get better n before anyone judges oh shes just 17 n acting like this, u need to know my struggles

ive always been the introvert n the ugly one as compared to my one year younger sis whos so pretty that people compliment her all the time n i just stand beside her waiting to leave n cry cuz yeah nobody ever compliments me or gives a fuck about me

since my childhood my grandparents n aunts n uncles have always treated me like shit n treated my sis as if she’s the best n tbh she is but im not that bad of a person, ive done nothing to anyone but my existence just sucks yk

also before anyone makes assumptions that im leaving some details behind

just a question, is it still as haram as suicide

Every single thing about me sucks, every SINGLE thing. im always there for anyone who needs me and nobodys ever there for me.

I hate my existence so much that it ruins me mentally, i got nobody to truly talk to or rely on like at all

tbh everyone is better than me n im just a piece of shit who shouldnt even be existing, everything hurts n it’s been like this since forever

a lot of things i think about myself have started cuz of my family aswell, my parents have had the worst relationship n as im the eldest i always had to stop them from getting violent n even after trying so hard to help my mom i still got called a lot of shitty things.

im good at nothing, im such a piece of shit n im u

what do u ideally choose to do in such a situation

does it get better or its gonna be a cycle of similar things?