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I'm high as fuck and I just looked at my dog and was like,, why the fuck is there some weird living creature sat on my couch just there staring at me and it's hairy and has a weird nose,,, like there's some weird lil guy just sat there staring at me conscious the same level as I am, like this is literally some little alien sat next to me on the couch and I'm so creeped out, I literally had to leave the room and go to bed because I'm so scared 😭😭😭 help

I'm asking this because I'm sick and tired of everyone in my life telling me that 2 years on I'm just "not over him yet" and im just "not healed" or depressed or whatever. 2 years on from this relationship and I still can't think about certain things without crying, 2 years on and I still get constant panic attacks whenever I go to his home country because I'm scared I'll see him in the street, 2 years on and I feel completely detached from the person I was before. I know I'm not healed but I'm seriously considering the fact I could have PTSD of some form at this point, I don't want to acknowledge the fact that I was weak and obsessive and let him do things to me that could have caused this

I'm NOT asking for therapy or a diagnosis just venting and wondering people's thoughts on the severity so please don't ban this question...

I posted about this before but I had a dream about it and more to add to it now that I think about it. I've always had intrusive thoughts of doing physical harm to babies and sometimes animals but I have a dog which I don't harm so I would assume the animals one isn't as severe. I started having these thoughts when I was around 7 and remember hitting my baby doll against stuff and biting its head because I thought it was cute, probably just some delayed mental capacity stuff as I know cute aggression does exist and probably more prominent in kids, so I

I guess this is just a rant cause I know nothing I can do will change the way I see myself, the NHS doesn't give a shit about how I feel since I'm not schizophrenic or worse and makeup is just a cover up for my insecurities and not permanent, I was looking at a true rate me subreddit and their rating system since I obsess over my appearance a lot and came to the conclusion I'm below average according to their guidelines, being rated scientifically is not something people do when they see you in public so I know that just cause you're below average doesn't mean everyone notices it but I feel like if I'm not atleast a 7/10 then I'm just worthless and a waste of life, I put so much energy into

Whenever I'm in a friendship group and there's that one person who's always trying to hang out with me more, always there for me and always the nicest one to me but I don't consider a close friend I'm always ruder to them than other people and I don't know why, is it because I can be without them complaining? Maybe I'm just a bitch but it's happened in relationships too where if the guy is super nice to me etc I'm just more relaxed and don't feel the need to be nice back cause I know I can get away with it, also another thing is whenever I'm pissed at someone I always feel a sense of an ego boost knowing they fucked up and feel bad about it, and it feels good to know that I'm in the right an

I've never been able to actually cum from any guy even though when I masturbate myself I can easily orgasm and even squirt, the guy I'm with now can last really long and it feels really good but I never actually feel like I'm cumming although the sex is definitely orgasmic, am I just not fully satisfied or am I orgasming just not ejaculating?

I (19f) started talking to this guy (21m) recently a few weeks ago and we've met 3 times, he lives about an hour train from me and 2 taxis which is kinda expensive but whatever, no he doesn't offer to pay he has once but don't think he can afford it right now? Not sure since he seems to be buying other stuff.

First red flag- talks to me way less since we've had sex and seems way too comfortable with me talking about girls on TV being hot and saying if he could be with anyone he would be with them etc while I'm just sat there.

Second red flag- wants to take things slow commitment wise 🙄🙄 even though he tried to finger me on the first date.

Third red flag- let me sleep in his bed alone whil

I'm truly at my wit's end about this, I really can't afford to spend 2-4k on a labiaplasty but I cannot deal with the intense chaffing,soreness,tenderness, how easily I get infections etc, stuff getting stuck up there and causing infections and just in general how awful I feel and my self confidence about my vagina, I hate it, I cannot deal with it anymore but I don't wanna waste a GPs time by calling up saying I wanna get it done but there's nothing they can do for me unless I go to a private surgery, does anyone know if I could be applicable?