going through a rough patch with my boyfriend. cycles that keep repeating, different expectations,...
of course we're still figuring out what we want in general in life, but it's been painful.
I can't be intimate because of fear and unresolved issues, therefore I provided the solution of tantra, which removes a lot of pressure to "getting there". I've been betrayed in last relationships and my self esteem and belief in myself is still recovering.
But I think he has this FOMO, or maybe it's just an unregulated dopamine hunt, but he wants adventure and spontaneousness. we're still young I get that, but the pressure has been a little too much.
and with our abandonment issues were

