Professional-Hawk489

I’ve been doing a decent work placement and taking music lessons. It’s not as good as life used to be in general before my first psychosis, but it’s something. However in my sleep I’ve been having TERRIFYING nightmares- tonight Paige Bueckers was a backrooms/SCP monster and I was in this dark Roblox game where she was trying to brutally murder me and the other kids. Ive been having a nightmare every night. Does this mean my psychosis is returning?

How did you recover?

I became very obviously manic and depressed for weeks saying VERY ALARMING things.

I received a warning for invciting violence or hatred. Ironic, right?
All I did was reply to someone’s question. I can’t see what I commented but I don’t “incite violence”

I got groomed by an older Muslim guy in London I was 15 he was 18/19.
I was going to a good school on the outskirts of London, but he convinced me to go to an ALMOST ALL brown Muslim sixth form where i studied A Level Islam. I had picked philosophy but it was actually religious studies of Islam which they’d duped me into doing. I became more and more radicalised by Islam.
I got into work at a club restaurant and started smoking and using cannabis, which is common for Muslim boys from deprived areas in London.
I ended up attacking my older sister and going to prison on remand, having 3 mental breakdowns from how awful prison was.
I feel like the violence in Islam made me act out. Th

Or is he just using my diagnosis to deny having said horrible things to me?

I came back and apparently I was making death threats towards my abusive mother and older sister.
I thought I was like Ghost from POWER and that GTA and Islam (and ‘gangster’ stereotypes about black people were real and therefore true about me).
I threw hot water and sugar over my sister and cut myself with a knife in the process.
Luckily she wasn’t injured but she was and I had a week in a filthy disgusting violent traumatising prison. Three resulting mental hospital stays (sectioned twice)
Eventually I got found not guilty and given a flat .

Basically I had psychosis that was later discovered, was put in prison by my mum and older sister for throwing ‘boiling’ water and sugar over my sister. They were abusing me and my sister gave me scars and my mum took me to Amsterdam to ‘cheer me up’ where being depressed I took loads of cannabis and started not being aware of what I was saying and doing for weeks after. I got found not guilty now and have been discharged from mental health and moved out. I’m just wondering if I would’ve been fine in prison, or would I have got attacked?