u/RexianOG
I dreamt that I was hanging out with someone I really liked romantically. She was excited to make me a drink and asked if she could put just a little rum in my drink to make it taste right. I said no thank you. I then asked her please never offer me alcohol because I may say yes some day and I really don’t want to.
All this in a dream. Is it ok to be proud of something that didn’t really happen? Haha
For the first time in a little over 6 months I called out. I’m sick with a head cold. I’m laying in bed feeling crappy but I’m smiling because I am not calling out for a hangover or depressive episode caused by a binge or a bad thing that happened while drunk. This is the least guilty I have felt calling out of work. Going to savor this shitty head cold.
A year ago today my ex fiancé was adding the ex to her title by telling me she had cheated on me multiple times. I moved out, into the house of a family friend. Today I’m being told I have to move out. Nothing I did, her boyfriend is moving in. I just am feeling so scared and sad right now. The one fall-back place I have to live is my moms and I don’t believe I can maintain my sobriety there. I am so scared.
Edit: it’s been a few days since I got the news I have to move. My best friend and I are going to look for a place, she is sober too. I am welcome to stay with her and her mother until we find a place. It’s all working out. And I didn’t drink!
I was just off, feeling angry and wanting to cry and scream for god knows why. I was crawling out of my skin. I wanted to numb it. I went straight home after work, zoned out playing animal crossing, hung out with my cat, went to bed. Woke up today and opened my little “i am sober” app and it congratulated me on 3 months sober. I’m feeling really good about my decisions I made yesterday, and making it to 3 months. Feels good to feel good about feeling good. Honestly still feeling pretty blah today but blah and proud. IWNDWYT
