I feel so alone. I have never felt more alone after feeling so high. She messaged me, and we got together, but after a month, she said she didn’t know what was wrong with her, and that she shouldn’t have contacted me to soon after her boyfriend dumped her. So she broke ties with me.
I feel like continuing on is just as viable as suicide at this point. The thought of suicide has less of a sting to it than it had before.
When I’d think of suicide, I used to cry, but it’s continuing on that makes me cry now. I want the suffering to end. I don’t want to be lonely anymore. I don’t want to BE. I just want it to end.