Sheeps

Hello everybody, hope you are well!

There has been an upswing in people in their early days in these threads, any advice for someone in the first few weeks of being clean?

Saw the police resuscitating someone at my local Walgreens last night. They were running around frantically and I rummaging through their trunk so I thought they might have run out of Narcan so I walked over and offered the two I carry but they said they just got him conscious. His friend was standing next to the car obviously destroyed. Felt like a punch in the gut to watch. And just down the road from me.

Also finally quitting the Juul and it sucks. Tired of being addicted to a USB stick but I didn’t expect it to be as hard as it has been. This weekend I was so depressed and had zero energy. Went into work for a while and it was useless, could barely focus. Now in early basically redoin

Had a horrific drug dream last night, to the point where I woke up and was like “I can’t believe I used.” Haven’t had one in the longest time.

The worst part is that my dreams are always the same. I decide to use, and I’m texting or calling and searching everywhere to find it, and people in my life are suspicious and I’m telling them I’m fine, I’m not going to use, while searching all the while. I don’t even remember now if I found it in my dream, but I woke up with real guilt and shame as if it was all real.

Time to take a shower hah.

I have recently experienced a problem with my phone (not music) Bluetooth connection to my car (a 2018 MB C300). I have called Apple, and Mercedes, to no avail, and I’m hoping someone here has an idea.

Approximately 50% of the time when I make or receive a phone call while connected to Bluetooth in the car, my phone refuses to place the phone call through the Bluetooth audio. If I try to manually switch the audio to Bluetooth, I hear silence (as does the other person), and within seconds it switches back to iPhone or speaker.

I have tried to troubleshoot to trouble shoot the issue, and have tried to eliminate any variables, but I can’t seem to solve the problem. This has only begun occ

Feeling restless. Feeling unsettled. Feeling ill at ease.

The cigarette smoke, the tears in her eyes; She’s feeling ill at ease.

Another hello, another goodbye; This is the life we lead.

And I can’t escape the feeling, that love lives so far away. And if I ever feel this lonely again dancing in a crowded room, I might just say goodbye and there might not be another hello.

But I can’t escape this feeling, that love lives somewhere in you. And I do it all for a lingering kiss, do it all for the scent of your hair. And because the first few nights, after you’re gone, it still feels like you’re lying there.

Another hello, another goodbye; This is the life we lead.

The cigar

I fly across the ocean to close the distance. I am so excited and anxious and a bit scared. It's what we've been working towards for 14+ months, I can't believe it's here. I feel like the astronauts must feel when they're strapped into their rocket ship about to blast into a whole new world.

You also really don't appreciate home until it's about to not be your home anymore. Fuck I'm going to miss the family dog. Sucks when your best friend can't talk on the phone or visit.

To those of you who have closed the distance, how did you feel on the day of? I can't be the only one that's been a ball of emotions hah.

So, I ordered this juice and I'm just not going to use it. It's a full 18ml bottle at 6mg. It's just super fruity and that's not really my thing. I'll throw in a mostly full sampler of Delta I got along with it.

At $10 new, it doesn't really make sense for someone to buy it from me (for what, $5?), so I'd prefer a trade offer. But, if you're inclined to buy it instead that's fine with me.