Hi Reddit. I've been a fan of this site (and SuicideWatch) for years now, but have not been active for a while now, mainly due to the time it was taking up and the fact that every second homepage link was about someone's cat. Anyway, I felt it would help me if I shared my story with this community. Be warned, it's long, but it's important to me to write (I love to write).
I've been depressed on-off for a year now. It had never been bad enough (I thought) to warrant me to see my doctor about it, but things have happened over the year that really damaged my sense of self-worth.
I don't have a bad life, but I'm going through a bad time right now. I'm a medical student (aiming to specialis