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So some time ago I tried to start cutting my arm hair (I didnt shave it right away in hopes they wouldnt notice) and my mother was terrified, said thats a thing suicidal people do, and if I wanted to look like a girl. I was nervous and pressured so I said some contradictory things about why I was doing it because I was still in the mindset of hiding.

A few days ago I got to have a less rushed conversation with my mother, I told her I wanted to look like a delicate man, because somehow thats how I wanna be percieved (Stupidly enough I ended up forcively linking it to some insecurity because they think I need a reason to be fem, soma damage needs to have been done to me according to them) and

So a couple of months ago the femboy experiment started. I did not see this as part of my identity but as an experiment (life has a lot of gameplay people leave unexplored) so I let my hair grow, and eventually I shaved my legs. I showed my sister and told her it was an experiment (the leg part, not being a femboy) and it had went great, my skin was now smooth and it dried quickly.

Now here comes a really bad set of events:

I wanted to shave my arms, but I couldn't stand a chance justifying that so i started trimming them with a scissor day after day in hopes of getting them used to it so that they only notice looking at a photo, then i can be like huh?. Issue is my mother and sister are i

So I got an excuse to go out for some time and I got wax, nair, and foundation and makeup remover. Now I need a way to store them before getting home so that I can retrieve them about an hour later when no one is home to see them. Any ideas aside from leaving it with a friend? Also my god buying stuff in secret is so stressing. I'm not used to lying or hiding anything.

While I can drive and use public transport, I never have a reason to do it. There is almost always someone at home which can drive me to where I need, which is often somewhere I need to shop or university, this is very practical and I have no reason to suddenly stop accepting lifts, but I want to get something so I need to be away around 2 hours with no excuse to which I am leaving or why I would go alone.

Im trying to get depilatory cream, but it's not a very common item in my country, I can for sure go get it, but why would I? How can I keep this hidden?

The other factor is that when I am out alone (Somebody else got me there and left), my mom needs to know what Im doing, not in a

Today I tested how it felt to shave my tighs. I didnt do it very thoroughly because if I stayed too much in the shower then my mother would be too sure I wasnt just shaving my crotch. Anyway why didnt anyone tell me hairless knees drh so fast! That is awesome! I got out of the shower aftar shaving, and after 30 seconds of cleaning up the shouwer my thighs were dry and warm while the rest of my hairy body was dripping water and quite cold still.

Absolute game changer, im looking forward to being alone and shaving my entire legs.

So im my family they are really accepting, but im not looking to come out as a femboy because im just looking for that androginous style which I think looks real good, and don't wanna pass of as a girl.

So I don't wanna explain why I shaved my body or at least my legs. But that is something I wanna do. I thougbt I had an advantage because my longest hairs in my legs are like 2.5cm long, so I could have wiggle room for making them smaller and smaller, getting their eye used to it. However, its hard to do it, as I tried to use those little razor heads to limit length, the smaller one I have, but its gonna be a real challenge because while hair is long, its often lying flat on my skin or curle

I have started to sit with my legs yoguether when in public, it looks better than spreading and I like the look. However, it hurts. My crotch starts to feel real bad, I dont even feel like im crushing it it just hurts.

Any advice on sitting femenine without suffering?

My hair is as long as ive ever had it, and I can play a little with it if I use a dryer. However, I go to college on bike or motorcycle, so the helmet almost always ruins it. Does anyone know how to make medium sized hair (before the uncomfortable phase, it currently looks like a helmet) more femenine?

I do cycling on steep hills regularly, so my tighs are pretty OK actually, but I'm pretty much buttless. Any recommendations?