demanthing

TFW then they start playing never have I ever and sex comes up TFW over half of them have had sex TFW all of them have had boyfriends TFW they're only 14/15 TFW they've had sex with more people than I've kissed TFW it hits me just how pathetic and unwanted I am as a virgin beta male

Kill me.

Figured I'd at least try this subreddit once. I'm currently living in Peterborough Ontario, finishing my university degree in a month and then doing a college course in computer engineering/programming because I didn't really enjoy my biology degree. I'm pretty much 100% moving, so location isn't too big of a deal but I'd like to stay in Canada (especially if Trump wins the election lmao, at least they'd get some pretty dank memes). I play games, quite a bit and they're a really big part of my life so it's basically a requirement that you play them too because I want to share those experiences with someone. I also enjoy listening to metal, some classic rock or just random cancer music ie. "r

Why can't I just marry this bottle of smirnoffs vodka? At least it will make me happy unlike everyone else...

I get hit on by gay guys alllllll the time. So I can't be ugly right? What the fuck do I have to do to get girls to be so interested? How is it that all the guys want me but not one fucking girl cares enough to respond to me? How the fuck is that possible?

Fuck this.

Got drunk (still am) at a bar with some nice metal bands playing (had a good time headbanging), although it took 2 hours to build up the courage to leave my house. Then I went to a club (I fucking love dancing) and danced my heart out, even got some of the guys just standing by the wall alone to join in with me because they saw how into it I was but got kicked out after an hour because I guess I was going too hard (being drunk probably didn't help). I swear the moment he said "I'm sorry I have to ask you to leave" I could feel the happiness just get sucked right out of my soul. I didn't even want to go home with somebody, , I just wanted to have fun by myself, and enjoy life for just a few f

Anything that isn't sadness feels so good. I don't even know why I'm crying but I do it almost every day now. All my 'friends' stopped talking to me immediately after high school (even my online ones) except for 1 who stopped talking with me after my first year in uni...my family kicked me out for smoking pot and the other family members I went to stay with kicked me out too because they hated me. The only time I feel content is work because the people don't know me enough to hate me yet and the only time I feel "happy" is when I'm smoking more pot, not that it gets rid of any of my feelings it just makes me stop caring about them long enough for me to forget them while I lose myself in my f