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It's a slight improvement and it's definitely worth celebrating! It's not as much progress as I would have liked, but that's ok. I'm doing my best not to feel pressure to fix it right this second, I know it's going to take time.

Good luck out there. It's tough with the quarantine, but that means that it's the perfect time to push yourself and come out having overcome a struggle.

Porn is more of a crutch for handling emotional problems than anything else it seems like. I'm working on it tho. I'm doing good

I feel a little bad, but the last thing I can do is feel like I'm worthless for messing up. I'm making improvements and that counts for something. Let's go.

It's finals week and I'm really running out of energy to fight of urges. On top of that, I've run into a lot of triggers on twitter today.

Just a short rant. Spending my time posting here instead of doing things I shouldn't

Like when there's an issue in my relationship or I'm anxious about getting all my work done.

What can I do proactively when I feel like this?

For the longest while, I felt like I didn't have a problem. I can't afford to feel like that right now. What I do ruins my girlfriend's self-image. And as much as I can say that "this is the last time, no more" there will be a next time. It's happened too many times for me to ever justify it.

I hate doing this to her. I hate feeling this. I hate having a problem. I hate what this is doing to me. I hate that I can still put myself in a frame of mid where it seems ok in the moment. I hate having something to hide.

I'm visiting a counselor this week. I can't let it keep happening.

Hey, I'm new to this sub. 3-4 years back I used porn to a very unhealthy degree. More recently I've dialed it back quite a bit. But now I'm in a loving, committed relationship and because of that I want to quit completely. She and I have discussed this issue before. It was a tough time when she found out because not only is she uncomfortable with me viewing porn, but I had promised her I wouldn't. She was obviously distraught, but after a few days of things being tense, she showed me forgiveness. I couldn't be more grateful to her.

Since that conversation, my habits have improved just a little bit:

I look up sexual content less often

When I do get the urge, it's normally tamer content (I