I AM >!SIZE S OR XS!< IN EVERY SYSTEM OF MEASUREMENT WHEN I LOOK OTHER WOMEN W MY NUMBERS THEY LOOK HOT BUT WHEN I LOOK IN A MIRROR I AM SOMEHOW FAT AND DISGUSTIN A UNLOVABLE. WHY. WHY AM I LIKE THIS I WANT TO CRY.
I know what my ED wants but its not worth the pain a suffering and i know i wont be satisfied w it bc i reached my gw once and i wasnt satisfied then. but im so fucking scared of recovery. but i also just want to eat normally again. i hate this so much.


