killmalik

Why do people act like raja Jackson is king of black people? That’s like being mad at all white people for Jeffrey dahmer or the parkland shooter you people need to go back to school.

I want to work out but I don’t want to end up killing myself. I just want to do body weight. Is it ok if I just say fuck it and do whatever it takes. Or will that be bad for me and my body.

I’m 24 and man it’s really starting to feel like I’m not cut out for life. I can’t do it anymore. I’d rather die than live a long sad life. I’m hungry most days alone everyday. I’m brown skinned guy but I’ve turned pale from being inside. Sorry guys but I don’t think I can take this anymore. Working hard and being used just to end up alone and fucked up in the end. I have bpd and depression, adhd. Nobody noticed these things about me and I get lots of positive things said about me but in the end I always lose jobs and I’m just tired of fighting this battle. I don’t have the motivation. I feel like dying would be the best for me. Not like anyone cared when I was here. The sadness never ends.

My baby mom is so toxic and it honestly never stops. She constantly starts arguments and they never end. I think I should start looking into a restraining order I’m not attracted anymore I’m 24 had a kid when I was 19 and she’s 2 years older she just seems to not understand that I don’t come from a family that likes to argue and fight endlessly.

Just want to say it because it feels like I’m trapped in hell.

Some times I’m ok and then boom I get back to hating myself and everything else. Hating life, hating people it always goes from 0-100 fast. I’m mentally unstable atp and I get real dark. I usually do drugs/get drunk or hang with friends to get out of it sometimes I can’t get up because it pains me so much that I just shed a few tears and try to move on. I still function but I’ve always been like this and atp it’s getting worse with how much I’ve gone through. You ever just see everything in your mind that went wrong? Everytime you were hurt or betrayed? Well fuck it I do and I’ve adapted to it by creating a nasty side of myself. The sadness never ends.