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i didn't think that it would feel as good as it does--it's just official legal info. this has already been my name for over a year. but it feels amazing. i'm even getting my birth certificate redone. just wanted to share with y'all!

i watched david jay's talk on asexuality, connection, and amatonormativity (though he never used that word) and it gave me some thoughts. he said something that feels really true to me: all human connection is basically the same. the emotional connection between a parent and a child, between a pair of friends, between a group of friends, between basically anyone who spends time together: it grows in the same way, even if each relationship ends up looking different. and what then (david jay didn't say this part, i did) is the difference between an asexual romantic relationship and a platonic one, if they're both at the same level of intimacy? wel

i have... weird, mixed feelings. the doctor was generally supportive and gendered me correctly and everything, and i'm hopefully going to finally make progress on transition. so that's good.

but i don't know how to feel about the hirsutism thing. the doctor had a very forceful personality. the way he talked about it he was like "i can tell just from looking at you that you have a disorder," which was uncomfortable. i don't remember what exactly he said i had apart from hirsutism, so if anybody knows based on the things i'm describing please let me know. i always thought i was just on the hairy end of the typical afab spectrum. but apparently not. he explained that the peach fuzz that i hav