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Nobody gives a single fuck about me I swear to God. I stumbled upon a Reddit post of death experiences, and a user quoted it as the ultimate peace. The most blissful experience. And that is what I want. I do not want to be stuck with the same thoughts repeating over and over in my fucking head. What’s wrong with me? Why am I not enough? What did I do wrong? I do not want to have to stress about my life anymore, money, love, etc. I tried. I gave it my best shot and failed. Got back up and tried again. Failed. Fail fail fail. FAILLLLLLL I’m a failure. I’m a loser. I am excited to die. So I’m ready to speed up the process. 7 months of sobriety all for nothing. Ready to throw it all away. GG

I’m tired of never being heard. I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of things never going my way. I’m tired of not being appreciated. I’m tired of being broke. I’m tired of life. I’m tired of not having it figured out. I’m tired of watching others succeed when all I do is fail. I’m tired of being sober. I’m tired of feeling anxious. I’m tired of being a burden. I’m tired of fake friends. I’m tired of doing all I can for others and getting nothing in return. I’m tired of putting on a fake smile. I’m tired of getting up. I’m tired of taking medication. I’m tired of pretending it’s ok. I’m tired.