If someone talked to me like that, I wouldn't be mad, they are just telling the truth. Truth hurts. 

You are saying you are a truly shitty person cause you didn't finish college, you are leeching off everyone, you don't speak up and you are so weak it's fucking laughable. 

If someone else talked to you like you are talking to yourself right now it wouldn't be right.

So why is it ok for you to talk to yourself that way ?

I'm not against looking truthfully at ourselves and acknowledging negative shit but this feels over the top nasty.
Ouch

I just know it. I fucking hate my existence, I am so weak it's fucking laughable. Couldn't even finish college, how could I survive on my own in another country, hell I can't even ask for help at my "job". I don't want to keep on leeching, it's not fair, it's not a fulfilling existence. I no longer enjoy anything.

I won't survive a day on my own.