Counting to ten and back again

I keep losing my glasses now I can’t see

every now and then switched to daily

Can I say i’m really sorry Emily

It wasn’t really easy to lose my family

 

I said I hate you but I hate myself

It was easier keepin it on the shelf

Organized and never compromised

 

1,2,3,

Apologies never come easily

 

4,5,6

I’m playin these drums with chopsticks

 

7,8,9,

Spent half a decade drunk on wine

telling everyone i'm just fine

 

10

Can I say sorry again,

I know you don’t want a comedian

 

I quit church just to go and search

I wanted to belong tried to escape in hong kong

But it kept getting harder to play along

 

I keep trying to build a home

but it’s always just styrofoam

 

I said I hate you but I hate myself

It was easier keepin it on the shelf

Organized and never compromised

Even though I hate telling all the lies

 

A woman loving another woman

A girl holding hands with a girl

One small act against the world

 

10, 9, 8

I know you’re not gonna wait

It’s about time I set myself straight

 

7,6,5

I might never arrive

To be honest I get scared being alive

 

4,3,2

I know it’s not all just you

I’ve been looking for timbuktu

 

1,

More chance

I’m just asking in advance

 

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