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Dpressd

I have everything I could reasonably ask for, and still I want to kill myself every day. AMA.

EDIT: A comment on this post helped me find out the reason for my depression and now it's gone! I explained the story here. THANK YOU to all of those who posted, who cared, but a very special thanks to frinklestein. You saved my life.

A roof over my head and food on the table - check.

A loving, devoted, intelligent, sexy husband that I adore - check.

A job that I love and that I'm good at - check.

Youth and health (except for mental health, I suppose) - check.

People that would like to be my friends if only I would let them - check.

A supportive family - check.

Hobbies and interests (if I ever had the energy to pursue them) - check.

Money for chocolate - check.

*Edited whenever I remember more blessings.

Posted Dec 8, 2009, 2:28 PM UTC · edited

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frinklestein•

My wife has suffered from similar feelings for the past 4-5 years, and after therapists and anti-depressants did very little to help after initial success, we stumbled across accounts of these and her other symptoms (weight gain, excessive tiredness, IBS, lack of concentration, etc.) from people using the Mirena coil for contraception, as she was. She had it removed, and within a week I had my wife back. Any hormone-based contraceptives can do this, we've found, but not a single person in the medical profession ever even asked about contraception in all that time. Based on our (admittedly biased) trawling of the net, the mirena coil specifically has a very high incidence of it, and it's comparatively more severe too.

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DpressdOP•

This was the answer! More information here

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frinklestein•

Wow, I don't know what to say. I'm so glad it worked out for you.

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ardil•

Great work, friend! I'm sure this will inspire not just you, but many others like me to offer all the help that we can, even when there is some doubt if the help is needed / will be appreciated.

One instance of this kind is worth all the extra effort that one puts in into scores of "perchance" attempts.

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landypro•

Is your middle name Gregory?

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ardil•

I'm so happy for you! All the best!

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deadapostle•

I was a little bit of a doubter when I heard that you were doing better so quickly last week, but I hadn't seen the original comment by frinklestein at the time. His comment is in the running for best comment of the year, which is what brought me to this point.

At the time, I hadn't specifically said that I doubted that you were cured, but I was worried that you might be on a manic upswing or something along those lines. After reading into Mirena a bit more, I must say that it really does seem likely that this was the cause of all of your troubles.

I hope this comment meets you on another in a series of good days, and I also hope that you're taking advantage of the improvements.

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DpressdOP•

Wow, I am very happy that you found your answer and you both got your lives back! Unfortunately, I don't think this applies to me.

Edit one month later: I leave this comment for posterity. Oh how wrong I was!

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frinklestein•

'Twas worth a mention on the off-chance. Good luck, and don't give up. Your answer is out there somewhere.

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DpressdOP•

Definitely worth a mention! Thanks for your support.

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[deleted]•

Edit one month later: I leave this comment for posterity. Oh how wrong I was!

Interesting development, since you were taking birth control to get rid of your posterity!

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tboneplayer•

Very, VERY happy for you, Dpressd, and glad you'll stick with us to see what the rest of your life has to offer! More power to you!

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nominus•

How strange. My depressive symptoms have gone down drastically since switching from combination-type contraceptive pills to Mirena.

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tommytwotats•

How long have you worked for Bayer?

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nominus•

So because some women experience adverse effects on it, all do? Mirena is localized hormone, with less circulating in the blood, which I suppose for some women (like me) was better than the Pill.

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tommytwotats•

if there was a food or drug that caused the increase in statistical suicide risk that BCPs do, it would be driven from the market.. wait, why are they on the market?? The drug lobbies have the agencies in their pocket. These drugs kill people. That is an unacceptable risk. But to Bayer and the companies that make hundreds of millions of dollars a year with these poisons, you're body and health IS an acceptable risk.

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[deleted]•

Sex hormones are terribly unpredictable in terms of the effects they have on one's mood. You can find many examples in the literature of androgens and oestrogens causing both euphoria and dysphoria in men and women.

This is nothing new. It's not some ground-breaking discovery that modern medicine doesn't know about. It's not something that pharmaceutical companies are trying to cover up, either. Look "Mental Depression" halfway down the page. (That's the list of side effects for oral birth control published by whatever pharmaceutical company produces it.)

The problem here is the bottom-of-the-barrel, brain-dead physicians whom most people visit, who got through medical school 10, 20, 30 years ago by cramming for tests and then forgetting what they learned as soon as they no longer needed it to graduate. That, and idiots who take drugs without investigating them for themselves first. The very least you should do before taking something is simply to look at the side-effect profile of the drug and the frequency with which those occur before you take it. Don't just assume that your doctor wouldn't give you anything that could seriously harm you. Certain macrolide and fluoroquinolone antibiotics frequently cause a transient, but sometimes long-lasting, psychosis - especially in people with a history of mental illness - for example. Even the dumbass, piece-of-shit, asswipe doctors whom most of you patronize probably know that much and yet they probably wouldn't think to tell you that or might even consciously avoid the topic for fear of medication noncompliance.

Edit: I understand perfectly well that pharmaceutical companies do not lie at the zenith of scrupulousness and social responsibility and that the drugs they purvey are sometimes far more harmful than beneficial, but you're an idiot to extrapolate from a single example painting a pharmaceutical product in a bad light and then assume that a person sharing a positive experience with the same product must be a shill for its producer.

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pdinc•

My ex had the same problem - we eventually broke up because of her mood swings and constant lack of self-esteem, and she didnt get better until she got off contraception.

She was using the Nuvaring.

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[deleted]•

dammit! I have all those symptoms but am not on any BC. argh!

Congrats to your wife. Nothing is better than finding the culprit.

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kl116004•

Bravo

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Nerobus•

I must be weird, but I have been on the pill for many years, and recently (due to a lack of insurance and trouble getting an exam) I had to stop taking it. The change in hormones from being on it to now have SUCKED. I've gained a bunch of weight, I can't seem to get motivated, I can't sleep at night, can't wake up in the morning, etc. Ack, I need to get back on the pill.

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FAHQRudy•

I got my wife off everything, and life has never been better. We use a diaphragm now (which she isn't really fond of) (I am) and have her completely free of these bullshit hormones. The pill can be very beneficial for many things, but there's just no way people are supposed to pump themselves full of them for years upon years.

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wtfohnoes•

Why not use a condom?

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FAHQRudy•

We do. We both know I'd rather not. (Obviously.) That's when the trampoline comes into play.

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Marvin_the_robot•

This does absolutely nothing for me.

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bitwize01•

Well, fuck. Don't do that. I bet your loving, devoted, sexy husband wants you around tomorrow.

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DpressdOP•

I have managed not to do it, not even once!

Seriously, though, you put your finger right on the reason why I am still alive. I owe him everything.

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bitwize01•

Yeah, I was in exactly the same position as you about 2 years ago. My wife definitely gave me the support I needed to work though it.

Once you're back on your feet, reward your man with a BJ. It's a simple way to say "Thanks" that all men can appreciate.

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DpressdOP•

Finally some good advice! ;)

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[deleted]•

Does that advice hold for helpful redditors?

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Borealismeme•

Have you sought professional help? It sounds like you suffer from clinical depression which is treatable for a large number of those so afflicted.

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DpressdOP•

Yes, I have been on antidepressants for two years now. I have worked with several therapists and I saw a psychiatrist regularly for about a year. I strongly wanted the therapy to work, I gave it my best and it just wasn't enough. The medication (Prozac) did help a lot in the beginning, but when I started feeling worse again and I went to the doctor, he simply doubled my dose. This didn't work at all and I went through hell trying to go back to the original dose, 20 mgs, which is what I am taking now.

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Borealismeme•

My regrets that it did not work. I am not a doctor, so obviously if you have recommendations from a doctor follow their advice before mine. That said, since you responded initially well to medication, it would seem to me that your issue is one of a chemical imbalance rather than one of emotional trauma (especially given your OP summary of your life). You may wish to encourage your doctor to seek a different chemical solution, there are many other medications on the market besides Prozac.

My cursory google based examination of the ways in which prozac is used (again, not a doctor and defer to their analysis) would lead me to believe that even if other medications fail individually that often an initial good response to prozac can mean that it will work in conjunction with something like Zyprexa.

My son has a seizure disorder which, while using a different set of drugs for treatment, has often caused us to abandon one drug for another or for a combination. My son is hampered by the fact that his body is still growing and changing, and thus will likely not be stable until after puberty, but I can assure you that when we find a "good" combination that works for a while that it makes a huge difference in his quality of life.

I urge you to continue to seek a good combination that has a long term utility to you. As an adult, once you find a good combination you should be able to remain on it for an extended period.

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DpressdOP•

Thank you very much for your support. I wish you and your son the best.

I am now at a point where I have lost hope and I don't really trust doctors any more. I know I should look for a new doctor and start again, but this requires a lot of energy that I simply don't have at the moment. The medication did work well at the beginning, but I think that was a combination of Placebo effect and the fact that I was so far down that anything was an improvement. In the beginning the pills gave me hope, and I think that was more important than the chemicals.

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Borealismeme•

I understand and urge you to continue to search for a doctor you feel you can trust. The internet is often useful for finding people in your area who are similarly afflicted and often they can offer good advice on which local doctors are better than others. I recommend running a google search of "depression support groups" along with your city name. It is in some ways a terrible shame that depression also robs you and many other sufferers of their energy to seek assistance. If you are at all cyclical in your depression, I urge you to take advantage of your next "up" cycle to find a doctor you have more rapport with.

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grooviegurl•

I'm sure this has been addressed elsewhere, but there are a ton of different kinds of antidepressants out there. Prozac doesn't work for a lot of people. Ask to be switched to another type of antidepressant and give it two months to work. There's something out there that will help.

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whaa•

This is not your fault, it SEEMS like a chemical imbalance *NAD. Just because you aren't visibly ill doesn't mean you are any less ill. I don't know about specifics, but aren't there other drugs you could try?

Please consider switching meds or getting a second opinion. I believe you CAN be helped.

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DpressdOP•

Thank you for your kind words. Many people don't understand that this is in fact an illness, it has taken myself some time to fully accept it.

I will get a second opinion even if I have to ask my husband to physically drag me to the doctor because I don't have the energy to do it myself. Switching meds could make me feel better and anything with that effect would be very welcome, but still this is not a permanent solution. I wouldn't like to be tied to medication forever. Suppose I get new meds and my life goes back to normal and I feel well again, then what? I would most likely want to have a baby, and I can't get pregnant while on the meds!

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whaa•

Which would be a good thing to remind yourself when those negative thoughts start happening, I think.

I hear ya. Though think of it as a chronic illness kept at bay with medication. Sucks to be sure, but who knows what kind of advances they will make months/years from now, you know?

Seriously, take one step at a time. Unless you want a baby right now, this seems like a good time to take it easy on yourself and work on step one.

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archidan•

Do you actually want to kill yourself or do you just think about it?

If you actually do what has held you back?

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DpressdOP•

In the beginning the doctors held me back, they assured me that they could cure my depression, that I would be well again. Now I don't believe that any more and the only holding me back is my husband. I love him deeply and he doesn't deserve to suffer so much.

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archidan•

Are you on/have you been on any medication?

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DpressdOP•

I am copying the answer I gave above:

Yes, I have been on antidepressants for two years now. I have worked with several therapists and I saw a psychiatrist regularly for about a year. I strongly wanted the therapy to work, I gave it my best and it just wasn't enough. The medication (Prozac) did help a lot in the beginning, but when I started feeling worse again and I went to the doctor, he simply doubled my dose. This didn't work at all and I went through hell trying to go back to the original dose, 20 mgs, which is what I am taking now.

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[deleted]•

Prozac is a very mild anti-depressant. You should consider some of the bigger guns. The side effects are higher but their efficacy is much higher. Look into some MAOI's or Tryciclics.

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DpressdOP•

To answer your other question, I do think about it a lot (I can't help it) and about once a day I get a really strong urge to act upon it. It is a terrible compulsion and it takes a lot of effort not to follow through. Sometimes talking about it helps, hence this AMA.

Of course there are also times when I feel a bit more positive and hope that I can eventually beat this and live a normal live, but they are becoming increasingly rare.

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aenea•

Sometimes talking about it helps

You might also want to try SuicideWatch . There are a lot of us who have been where you are now.

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DpressdOP•

Thank you for your support. I was subscribed to Suicide Watch for a long time, but I found it was actually counterproductive. Reddit to me means escapism and I don't want to be reminded about my suicidal feelings every time I log in!

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topsul•

I feel that way about SW some days. Most I'm up to helping others though.

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skepdick•

Fatalism is an often byproduct of intelligence; a bit of rigorous exercise and omega-3 supps have allowed my sense of self-preservation to kick in

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DpressdOP•

One of the two episodes of self-harming that I have had occurred when I was going to the gym every day. Now I don't have the energy for that any more. I have also taken omega-3 with no discernible effects. Nevertheless I think yours is excellent advice, it just didn't work for me.

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urbancamp•

Have you thought about a change of scenery? Is there somewhere else you would rather be? Where do you live? Are you far from family that you are close to?

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DpressdOP•

I have indeed thought about it. I live in Dublin, Ireland and I am conscious that the bad weather and lack of sunlight may be affecting my mood. My husband and I are currently looking for options in sunnier pastures. Having said that, I am not from Ireland originally and I moved here because I quite like it. Plus I really love my job, although I am at a risk of losing it because I can't get out of bed most days.

About my family, yes, they are far away and I quite like it that way. They would do anything for me and they make me feel very loved, but there are a lot of things I'd rather not share with them. It would only make them unhappy, and there isn't anything they can do.

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urbancamp•

I don't know the circumstances of what you don't want to share with your family; however, speaking from my own experience, not being able to open up to my family was added weight on my shoulders that constantly hounded me and brought me down further.

Granted that once I opened up to them I got a lot of useful and useless suggestions. It was still worth it.

I think you should also consider a second opinion and different medications.

Also, by personal experience, moving to "sunnier pastures" does not always fix the problem. I moved to a sunny beach city and the fix was temporary. But it did help me realize that there was good and bad no matter where I went. I just resolved to try to be more conscious of what was good. The move also helped me realize that I needed to be closer to (yet, far enough from) my family. They just happened to be my most reliable and genuine support.

I hope you will never give up. You have a lot of life to live. Start sharing your life with others. It will be your legacy. Try everything.

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DpressdOP•

Thank you for your advice and your words of support.

My family knows that I am depressed, I just don't share with them the specific details about how this affects my life. Whenever I have done that, I have regreted it afterwards because it only makes them feel sad and powerless. There truly is nothing they can do apart from being there for me if I ever need anything, which they already are. I agree that family can be the most reliable and genuine support, but none of them have any close experience with depression and they simply don't understand what I'm going through.

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ghostchamber•

You sound like my ex-wife. She had a hard time being happy despite having a lot of good things going for her.

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DpressdOP•

I am sorry for both of you.

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ghostchamber•

Thanks. Unfortunately, neither of us is happy despite making the decision to split up, which in theory should have made us happier.

It doesn't make a lot of sense. But then again, nothing does.

Aside from that, I can relate a little as well. I toy with similar thoughts, although I am fairly confident I would never actually go through with it. I'm just very negative and sometimes harbor unrealistic dreams of escape.

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DpressdOP•

I think it is OK to have those thoughts sometimes and it doesn't mean that you are mentally ill, but if you ever get the urge to act upon them you should seek professional help.

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Paciser•

Play Team Fortress 2. Trust me.

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DpressdOP•

I have a very, very addictive personality. I have on occasion spent more than 12 hours a day on a Facebook flash game. I know myself, therefore I run away from anything remotely addictive. I don't drink, smoke or take drugs and I would never, ever play TF2. Or WoW.

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Paciser•

WoW is terrible, I played it for almost 2 years. TF2 is great for thirty minutes bursts. Once you get into a situation where you feel awesome, you really do feel awesome. But don't start depending on it, lol.

I am straight-edge, too.

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DpressdOP•

WoW is terrible, I played it for almost 2 years.

LOL.

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urfaselol•

take ecstasy <3

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[deleted]•

Gee i dunno, when you get on a server with a bunch of assholish kids telling you how badly you suck as a soldier, your self worth goes down a bit.

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DpressdOP•

LOL. Also, great user name!

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[deleted]•

Thank you!

I actually feel just like you. I have a pretty good life, one that people would want to have yet I feel unhappy or just monotone. I had anxiety all growing up but never really depression until recently. The same thing happened to me with the medication they prescribed. I was given Zoloft. It worked wonderfully. When it stopped working they upped the dose which made me much much worse. I got so frustrated that every doctor just wanted to give me meds and call it a day that i stopped all together. Its been years now without meds and my anxiety has changed into depression. I just started going to a therapist because ive never been before and I want then to figure me out before giving me pills.

I dont have any worldly advice because im exactly like you trying to find answers. Im not suicidal at all really. Im just miserable most of the time and i dont know why. The sad part is when you are depressed you have no motivation therefore it takes you 1000 times longer to try to get help and when it doesnt work, the motivation to keep trying gets lower and lower. I often wish my husband would just divorce me already so that I can deal with this on my own and not have to worry about ruining someone else's life. :(

if you ever want to chat with other depressed people, there is a chatroom: www.realmentalhealth.com go to Chat. It helped me for a while although some of the people there make you more depressed. lol

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DpressdOP•

Thank you for your advice and your words of kindness. I'm happy that at least you don't feel suicidal. You seem to have done the right thing by going to the therapist, I hope it works well for you.

I might try that chatroom some other time. I feel I've had enough social interaction with this AMA to last me for weeks!

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Paciser•

Which is why you join a clan or team and play only with them! :D

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[deleted]•

Im trying to get my friends to all be on a team and Ill server host. Then we can kick out any unruly kids. Sometimes just listening to those kids makes me want to punch the wall.

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rebo•

Do you think that having too much of what you need somehow contributes. If you had something to fight for or had to struggle to achieve you would feel better? Do you feel like you hate yourself or is there another reason why you want to end your life?

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DpressdOP•

Actually, I feel I have to struggle to achieve many things that people take for granted every day, like getting out of bed, taking a shower, going to work... the list goes on.

I definitely hate myself, I feel I am a failure and a disgrace and the world is better off without me.

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rebo•

Do you recognise that feeling as irrational behaviour and not logical, despite for you it is obviously a 'real' feeling? or do you genuinely believe there are valid and concrete reasons for your feelings about yourself?

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DpressdOP•

I know it is irrational, selfish and plain stupid. I know that I am ill and it is the depression that makes me feel like this. I know life can be wonderful, but even if I don't value mine there are many things that I can do to help others.

I once read that depression is "when pain exceeds pain-coping mechanisms" and I think that is exactly what happens to me. I can clearly see what is going on with me, but I simply don't have the energy to do anything about it.

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whaa•

Don't make yourself feel worse for beating yourself up about what you "should" be feeling. Who cares if it's irrational or selfish or if people give you shit about it?

I think by even talking about it hints that you do value it a little at least. Which is a start IMO.

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Flyboy•

Why are non-depressed people motivated to pursue anything? What makes anyone's life worth living? Is happiness a conscious choice, available to anyone despite their circumstances?

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DpressdOP•

I do believe happiness is more of a mindset and there are plenty of very happy people who are in much worse circumstances than mine. I think if a person is mentally healthy, the good or happy moments far outweigh the bad or sad ones, and this makes life worth living. As to your first question, I wish I could answer that.

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sfultong•

I think the happy and sad moments roughly balance each other out for most people, but we tend to remember the happy moments better.

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DpressdOP•

You have a point there.

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anonymouslives•

Hi there,

I'm not a psychiatrist, but I am in the health care field and have studied mental illness, brain physiology, pharmacology, etc.

From what you've stated, it sounds like the thoughts you're having about suicide are not because you want to die, but rather, they're an intrusive thought pattern that appears to be unavoidable, and leads you to thoughts and impulses to act on such thoughts.

That actually sounds very much like a compulsion, possibly related to obsessive compulsive disorder. It's like people have to wash their hands several times a day, even though they know they're not dirty, but the impulses are strong. In your case, if you acted upon it, you'd only be able to successfully do it once, and unfortunately, you'd be dead. This disorder is very treatable pharmacologically and therapeutically via sessions with a psychologist.

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DpressdOP•

I have been on treatment with a psychiatrist and several psychologists and none of them has ever suggested OCD. You are right in that it is much like a compulsion, in fact, I used that same word in another comment. But the truth is whenever I feel like that, I do want to die. I feel like I can't bear living any longer, it is too painful. And I also have many other symptoms of depression, so I'm not sure if your comment really applies. But thanks anyway!

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archidan•

What toll has this taken on your husband? Does he know how often you think about suicide?

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DpressdOP•

He proposed right after I was diagnosed with clinical depression, so he knew what he was getting into. He knows that I think about it a lot, but I think he's still in denial about how often and how strongly I feel this. He's always there to hug me when I've had a "bad day" and doesn't ask many questions because he knows it's better to let me talk when I'm ready. I don't hide anything from him but I do try to cushion him somehow because it makes him so unhappy...

It has indeed taken a huge toll on him. I can see how powerless he feels every day, how he tries to help in every possible way he can and he fails time after time. I sometimes wonder if he may not be getting depressed himself as a consequence of living with me.

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sfultong•

How did you feel when he proposed? If you were seriously depressed at the time, I could see that as not actually being a happy event.

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DpressdOP•

I think the word that best describes it is astonished. I was indeed seriously depressed, but the doctors had given me a lot of hope and I was foolish enough to believe that by the time of the wedding I'd be right as rain.

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sfultong•

I'm imagining a darkly humorous scenario now, where you are crying at your wedding, thinking "why can't I be happy on my own wedding day?" and the people around you are watching you, thinking "oh, to be so in love..."

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Astark•

You know, when you become suicidal, you're actually a sick person with a terminal illness. Just as you wouldn't stop treating your cancer until you were either cured or dead, you need to keep working to get over this sickness. Life is short enough, and to cut it short by even a moment would be a real tragedy.

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DpressdOP•

I agree with everything you say. The problem with this illness is that it prevents you from working to get over it!

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dusklight•

Hey your list of things above .. that is NOT everything that you can reasonably ask for. That's what society, tv and media tells you to ask for.

Maybe what you want is something else? Maybe you don't know what you want yet, and you haven't found it? The only thing I can say for sure is, if you haven't found what makes you happy yet, doing the same things you are doing now is not going to help you find it.

Check out Mazlow's heirachy of needs and ask yourself, what are you missing from that diagram?

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DpressdOP•

That is a very interesting article, I have only given it a glance but I will definitely read it and ponder about it.

Your advice rings so true with me that I really don't know what to say.

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[deleted]•

Make sure you don't have black mold.

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DpressdOP•

I have explained that in previous answers.

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Cid420•

You have so many things I wish I had and it's not good enough for you? I hope you do kill yourself because I don't think you deserve them if you could even consider ending what appears to be a good life.

(This conclusion is only based on what you have said; I know nothing about any kind of depression or mental illness you may have)

So my question is, how does it make you feel knowing that there's people who would kill for what you have and you would consider just throwing it all away like nothing? Do you really think that little of what you have?

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DpressdOP•

The answer to your second question is that I don't think little of what I have at all. I know I am extremely lucky and blessed in many ways.

The answer to your first question is: it makes me want to kill myself.

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Cid420•

But you don't appreciate them enough to want to stay alive and continue appreciating how many wonderful things you've got? (isn't that called taking things for granted and not really appreciating them at all?)

What about your husband? Why would you even consider suicide and putting him through that? Does he know how you feel? Also when was the last time you had a vacation? You know, just get away from everything and just relaxed in a new setting with a clear head?

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DpressdOP•

As I have said before, the deep love I feel for my husband is the only thing that prevents me from going through with my thoughts. He does know how I feel.

Regarding your first question, I think I already explained in my answer to your other comment.

The problem about vacations is they need organizing, and this is pretty hard to do when the most proactive thing you have done in weeks is writing an AMA in reddit. Plus even if I could find the energy to go somewhere else, I would probably only see the inside of my hotel room. Bit of a waste, isn't it?

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fas2•

As long as you are envious there will be no happiness for you.

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Cid420•

Why the hell would I do that? I seriously want to know how it feels to wave what appears to be a good life in peoples faces and say it means so little to them that they could just kill themselves.

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DpressdOP•

I am sorry if you feel I am waving my "good" life in your face. This was never the intention. On the contrary, I wanted people to know that I value what I have and I know that I am lucky to have it. Maybe that is not the case with yourself. Now I don't know you or your circumstances, but I would assume you have enough energy to get out of bed every day, take a shower, maybe even leave the house and talk to people. If this is the case, I truly envy you.

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[deleted]•

dont feed the troll.

This person has no clue what depression is whatsoever. You dont need to defend yourself to a jackfuck like that person.

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Cid420•

Trust me, you have nothing to envy. You see I'll probably have a gun to my head before 30. Living life with a lack of social skills or people that give a fuck about me is like using a computer with no mouse or keyboard; I'm merely a pointless observer that can't do anything.

I may come off as a dick but I'm not going to kiss your ass to try and make you feel better. I'm going to try and show you how lucky you are from my perspective. A job you enjoy? Someone you love that loves you? People that want to be your friend? A supportive family?

I'd cut my own balls off to know what those things feel like. Good day.

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It's not about how many good stuff you have going on in your life, it's about chemical imbalance in her brain. She could have none of this stuff and she could be happy.

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you clearly dont know what depression is, do you? Its not a choice. Its a chemical imbalance in the brain. Logically you know you shouldn't feel a certain way but your body and mind forces you.

telling someone to kill themselves? really? How irresponsible. My husbands brother killed himself and it destroyed his mother. You should be banned from talking ever again.

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