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KeyNectarine

I had to watch my dad die.

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I'm only 15 years old, but I had to watch my old man die. It was very sudden, mum calling the police and me having to do CPR on him until the ambulance arrived. I watched the life fade out of his eyes.

It was the scariest moment of my life, and no doubt about it, it will continue to be. This was about a month ago, and I'm hoping it'll get better, but it isn't and probably never will. It's fucking painful, even though there was nothing realistically I could've done (around a 12% chance of surviving cardiac arrest afaik) I still feel like I could've done more, like I could' ve saved him.

People always are telling me that I'm "so brave" and "so strong" for doing that, but I'm not. At that time I was just a scared, confused little boy who was thrusted into a life-or-death situation where the odds were stacked against him. It's fucking painful, dude.

Sorry if this is off-topic or not allowed mods, I just really needed to get this off my chest and to vent about it.

EDIT: Thank you all for the kind words and the encouragement. It means a lot.

Posted Apr 12, 2021, 3:21 PM UTC · edited

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Charliedarkly17•

I don't even know what to say to this... I'm terribly sorry for your loss and I hope he found peace. Don't take anyone close to you for granted, you could lose them at any time.

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TheLittlestDarkness15•

Wow. That's gotta be rough. If you need to talk to anyone about it, feel free to dm me. I've got a kinda similar experience.

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OGBarlos_•

Shit like that isn’t easy bro, I wish the best for you

Keep your head up

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blu2003•

Life is unfair as fuck. I dont know if youre relgious but ill be prayin for your mental health.

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jjones_0219•

my condolences to you and your family. sending you light and love

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SpiritenHasArrived15•

please delete this, absolutely disgusting

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