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I'm only 15 years old, but I had to watch my old man die. It was very sudden, mum calling the police and me having to do CPR on him until the ambulance arrived. I watched the life fade out of his eyes.

It was the scariest moment of my life, and no doubt about it, it will continue to be. This was about a month ago, and I'm hoping it'll get better, but it isn't and probably never will. It's fucking painful, even though there was nothing realistically I could've done (around a 12% chance of surviving cardiac arrest afaik) I still feel like I could've done more, like I could' ve saved him.

People always are telling me that I'm "so brave" and "so strong" for doing that, but I'm not. At that ti

I'm only 15 years old, but I had to watch my old man die. It was very sudden, mum calling the police and me having go do CPR on him until the ambulance arrive. I watched the life fade out of his eyes.

It was the scariest moment of my life, and no doubt about it, it will continue to be. This was about a month ago, and I'm hoping it'll get better, but it isn't and probably never will. It's fucking painful, even though there was nothing realistically I could've done (around a 12% chance of surviving cardiac arrest afaik) I still feel like I could've done more, like I could' ve saved him.

People always are telling me that I'm "so brave" and "so strong" for doing that, but I'm not. At that tim