hello anxiety

Today I saw myself for the first time when

I slept, kept my head under my pillow,

body under the blanke,

It was an anxious feeling in this chest.

Who was I? de-attachment occurred almost

naturally,

Maybe more than this anxious internal tingling,

Or maybe both the tingling and the

nothingness holding my weight

Under the bed and above my body and head.

I said "screw it" im gonna love this anxious kid

as my own,

It said right back

”go eat healthy and do yoga”

I still don’t know if the anxious self was my

higher self

But that request certainly made me feel so to

hold myself tighter.

I wept and sighted at how

I have always missed the truth

Of parts of me- anxious ones,negative, crazy,

mad,arrogant,aloof,angry, sad,hopeless ones-

How much I’ve judged them

Like a person- I disown, reject, deny

The existence of,

just for the traits of them.

I wish I knew they were real,

Had needs, wants,magic,

directions,thoughts of their own,

wanting my good in between the lines.

It’s funny how my real self was hiding in these

Parts of me, almost like the common well

known mythology,

The best place god found to hide before

creation was

Within a human for he won't ever look inside-

Maybe it’s the truth-

maybe It all is

It all is

It all is

1.)https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/wscokv/this_is_the_first_poem_ive_intentionally_written/il15kqn?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share&context=3 2.)https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/wspu47/my_second_poem_a_short/il16ibx?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share&context=3