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I developed a drinking habit and recently quit smoking. I woke up, was chilled and looked forward to the day. I chilled, ate, coffee, Stift you do on a sunday morning. Decided to go out and skateboard, managed to almost land a trick (it was the first time with both Feet on the deck-try) and felt good. My mum invited me for lunch a few minutes in the sessiin I had and I said yea, I'd come. But it was a big mistake. We got in a fight and from there the day became worse and worse. Next thing that happened was that I was thrown out of my second band and my replacement is the biggest dickhead ever. After that Most of the day was gone and everything was wasted. Started drinking, feel bad, depresse

So far I have done:

Bathory Goat Shirt (Front and Back Print) Marduk - Panzer Division Marduk shirt (Front, Back and Emblem on sleeve) Amon Amarth - Thor Shirt (front and back print) Children of Bodom - Singer Shirt (front and back)

I am planning to do:

Metallica - Master of Puppets Shirt Some Slayer Shirt I think looks cool, undecided yet At the Gates - Slaughter of the Soul & With Fear I Kiss The Burning Darkness Shirt Marduk - FMJ Shirt Venom - Black Metal I will also clear the leather jacket with the studs and post a template of the clear one so people can create their own Battle jacket using Photoshop and I also plan on modelling a bullet belt If I have the time.

If you know oth

Stopped Smoking last week, smoked again last weekend for some reason. Third day is the hardest for me. It's when at my first try of quitting my legs started scribbling like 1000 insects crawl on it and this try I have a bad headache since last evening, could not sleep and am fatigued/depressed with suicidal thoughts. Don't crave for cigarettes though.

I need help. My alcohol consumption is getting out of hand and I am concerned that my health suffers from it. It's gotten so Bad that it feels weird to go into a supermarket and don't buy a few cans of beer. It's gotten so bad that I drink at school and If I have alcohol at home I drink in the morning to make this Life enjoyable. Life is just dull and boring. 98% of people bore me, are uninteresting and I don't want to live in a world like that to be honest. When I am drunk I feel a little different. I still know I can't make my dreams a reality but I also don't care so much. All trauma can't hurt me. To be honest.i don't even act too different, Just Not depressed. Most people can't Tell I a

Asking for a friend

Anyone else having a problem with restaurants? Basically I sometimes go with my parents to save money and it usually tastes better than the 5 things I cook on my own, but I always instantly regret it. It's basically lile going Schizophrenic for me. You hear voices 360° from where you are going louder and louder from normies discussing stupid shit, going louder, then my parents say something irrelevant which I can't even hear so I just nod it off and get headaches.

Am I the only one?

After a week of straight Depression (to the point of just not getting up on saturday and sunday), remembered I won't be back for 12 hours, want to die again.

I've made a post yesterday on here stating my problem with my mood swings, make this as a continuation if you will. I like posting this on this reddit because people actually read through it and sometimes answer & I feel like reading this might help one or the other person feel less alone with their issues on here. on r/depression, r/suicide r/offmychest I mostly get ignored or get the "contact a suicide hotline" or "it will get better" or "turn to god" shit I don't wanna hear about. I don't want to be hospitalized again. And I am not going to lie, I need attention more than anything else probably. Does this make me an attention whore? Maybe, but please trust me that this post is no exag

I have 1 or 2 good days a week where I am like I imagine every 'normal' person feels like every day. But then I have around 5 a week where I want to be an hero. The suicidal thoughts vary in intensity from 'this could be suicidal' to 'lets check the shower If I can pssibly hang myself in my shower'. I don't know how much longer I can take this. It started years ago and peaked eversince I started working and got worse and worse. I am not made for this world, no one around me understands, I Sound like a 14 year old girl, but I don't know anyone quite Like me irl. Not once.

Hi,

I've got an ancient seed and I wonder what's so special about them. Checked the wiki, but I still don't get the big deal about them. Can anyone tell me what's so special about them?

I am emotionally unstable but I think most of my moodswings come from not letting emotions out because I don't really know how. Like on bad days I really wanna just cry it out but it does not work. When I am angry I get overwhelmed but to the outside no one can see I am, when I am happy the same. I really don't know how to have emotions anymore, I talk like a robot and don't even enjoy talking. I think most of this comes from me being very emotional as a kid and being bullied for it. Kind of like a game, like "who can make the weird kid cry the fastest?". Until I was around 15, I was in this stone mode from then. It's getting better with "positive emotions" but I am still very unstable for t

Overhear people talking about a place you know about, but no one else does, think "holy shit I can be useful for once", say that on top of this specific place is an old, abandoned refectory which is cool to visit, no one looking at you, no one answering, probably no one even heard.

Happens too often.

Think "K. That worked". Walk away silently.